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Used to think I was D, but I've gained some weight and now I'm not so sure. I feel like I'm too bottom-heavy and curvy to be pure D. Could I be SD, or even DC?
What kind of outfits would suit me the most? I'd love to pull off androgynous fashion and boxy/straight/sleek silhouettes. Am I too round/soft/pear-shaped for that?
>finally accepted i'm trans at age 20 after years of going back and forth and repping
>came out to friends/professors/uni ppl etc.
>academic pressure got too much, had depression-induced breakdown, had to take a year out and go back home
>was deeply miserable and dysphoric all the time, tried to guymode but was a pre-t gigapoon so it didn't do anything
>depression got too much, came out to parents in the hope that they'd take pity on me and help me go on hrt (still depend on them financially...)
>they were horrifically transphobic, spent the next few months making my life hell, would routinely scream at me and claim i ruined their lives
>tried to change their mind, had conversations/sent them articles etc. it only made things worse, they claimed i was being groomed by the internet/trans support orgs/my friends etc.
>found out about diy in the meantime, was too scared to try at home
>eventually stopped defending myself or bringing up anything trans-related
>went back to uni, started testosterone (at 21), realised i have to keep my parents from finding out (they insist on videocalling me and will go crazy if i say no, so plenty of opportunities for them to notice)
>started girlmoding to evade suspicion + bc it felt less disgusting than looking like a gigapooner or ugly butch
>still out to everyone tho, so now i get he/himmed and called by a male name while looking like a whole ass woman
>still deathly afraid of my parents noticing, so i keep up the girlmode......
>it's so over for me
TLDR: pooner socially transitions pre-t, comes out to everyone, is met with the full force of his deranged parents' wrath, goes on t a year later + starts girlmoding so parents won't notice, now somehow simultaneously hrtrepping in girlmode while out as ftm
I've been pretty slim my whole life, but recently I've gained some weight. Most of my friends say they can't really tell a difference but like, a bunch of my clothes don't fit me properly, and it's really messing with my head.
I feel super ugly and fat at the moment and I keep comparing my body to when I think I looked my 'best' (at 117lbs about 2 years ago).
I think I'd like to work on losing around 15lbs and get down to 125, is that necessary? Should I lose more/less?
an attempt at a more realistic poonah caricature
i look identical to this it's not even funny