u/lifeisntbeatiful

I have had this kind of feeling for a while when I close my eyes, I see a garden with a rock wall and it feels like peace, I can also see many shades of green and a woman, not a person just a feeling of a woman in a spiritual way, I'm kind of new to spiritualism and witchcraft but I feel like I have awakened some things that were buried deep in me. But I do have a problem which would be the fact that I feel like life in the modern world will never fulfill me and my mind to feel at peace. Every morning I yearn for a quiet life in a small cabin in the middle of absolutely nowhere. What am I supposed to do?