u/lilpapne

so i've (f26) been talking and getting to know a guy (m36) for like 6 months now and i am having doubts if i actually love him or not. he's really nice, attentive, watches the films i recommend, good at making conversation, we share the same political views, i cant complain about anything he does cos hes actually a good guy but for some reason i just dont think i find him physically attractive, never got butterflies or even a spark. we met face to face 4 times, hung out together, walked together and went to cafes. for some reason I was convinced this guy was the one and i was just being picky about looks and telling myself "its ok you'll find him attractive afterwards and as long as he's a good guy" until a few days now i've been having doubts, and i only noticed now when i told my cousins about him and they noticed how uninterested i sounded when i talked about him (unlike when i talked about other guys before) i almost feel like i'm ashamed of him kinda? like sometimes i've even thought about purposely giving him the ick so he stops liking me, it sounds horrible but i'm normally not like this, i usually reject guys after 3/4 weeks of getting to know them if there's no compatibility so i'm definitely not scared of rejecting a guy but i think its cos we share so many things in common i wanted us to happen? basically my question/summary is, i've known this guy for 6 months, met multiple times and i'm still having doubts about finding him attractive, what do you think i should do? keep in mind, i've liked guys who would be considered "uglier" but i personally found them attractive so its definitely not about other people finding him attractive or not