how do you stop feeling like you've fallen too far behind?
i took two years off after shs because i was completely undecided about what program to pursue. when i finally started college, i realized i had found the right path. i really REALLY enjoy my program, and i finished my first year knowing i was exactly where i wanted to be.
now, i might have to take another gap year because of financial problems.
i even tried applying to fast-food chains and coffee shops this summer so i could save up for my tuition, but i didn't get hired anywhere.
it's just so frustrating because i'm turning 21 this year, and if i end up taking another gap year, i'll be delayed by three years. meanwhile, most of my batchmates will already be graduating next year while i won't even be in my second year yet.
i know people say that everyone has their own timeline and that life isn't a race, and i really try to believe that. but it's hard not to compare myself to everyone else.
sometimes i can't help but think how much easier things would be if i didn't have to worry about money all the time.