u/limbic_resonenz

I would like to hear people’s experiences with pms + Wellbutrin and generally how your cycles go while on this medication.

34F I’ve been on Wellbutrin for about two months.
I struggled with pmdd symptoms before this med. my cramping and stuff is about the same but I’m a lot more sad during my period. Before Wellbutrin I was on more angry, manic, and easily irritable.

This month, the week leading up to my period I cried everyday. Visceral crying sessions like when I was first adjusting to the medication. But it kind of feels good to process my emotions this way tbh. I also noticed I am a lot more tired on my period , like absolutely cannot go outside for a couple days and the brain fog is even worse. I am forced to rest which is again maybe a good thing. In general The Wellbutrin brain fog is really something else- I feel actually stupid and lose exec/ neural functioning quite dramatically. But my overall brain functioning is improved, I do have to say.

I have a hypothesis that Wellbutrin blunts my irritablility which is a great benefit when I’m on my period. I get we’re all different so would love to hear how people’s cycle and moods are on this medication.

I could have been something in my life if I wasn’t ruined by abuse and neglect. I dont know how to heal or regulate my emotions so I self-destruct. I self-sabotage when good things appear and think
”that’s not for me” but I fawn over misaligned shit. How does that even work ?

I pushed away every single person and every thing that was ever good for me. Even if they loved me. Never believed it. Maybe because I manipulated people to love me. I mirrored them and made them feel special because I shrank myself down to a piece of fluff for their benefit. Then I attacked them for not loving me enough and they abandoned me. It’s not I didn’t try. I tried very hard. But I failed over and over again.

In 35 years I haven’t managed to learn and now it’s too late. I’m alone, Im damaged, I drove my career into a hole and I hurt myself and other people badly because I hated myself. People weren’t perfect. But they weren’t my dad. They weren’t the ones that abused me the way he did. So why did I push people to their limit with my unhealed shit ?

I wanted everyone to pay for what my dad did to me, but that’s not how it works. I only just learned this year that the emotional abuse from my mom was somehow more insidious. The emotional neglect, coldness, male centered tendencies. It made me mask so much that I don’t even know who I am anymore. It made me mistrust who I am, what I feel.

I’ve been in and out of therapy my entire life. The last three months I finally found a new somatic therapist and I think im processing grief for the first time in my life and it hurts. No one told me it would hurt this much.

Hello, any help or tips to identify the motives of people sharply? I identify them when it’s too late, meaning I can be passive or am too focused to get my needs met that I miss the signs of others steering the relationship to their interests.
I realized especially professionally that some associates are willing to meet my needs (at least in theory) mostly because they have other motives that they slowly reveal over time.
My problem with that is that people portray themselves differently and aren’t direct- and thanks to my fixation and audhd it’s hard to discern when people’s words don’t match subtle actions. For example, someone wanting to join a project saying they are a specialist in X , (because you are need of certain X specialist) and they say and do all the right things. But as the project gets going you realize they’re actually Incompetent, and had their own agenda and effectively betray you and the project!! This has happened to me several times because I have achieved moderate past success and people want to latch onto that. Obviously being discerning is important but I work in the creative field, and many people are jacks of the trade, so people really sell themselves to fit whatever mold they want.
While I’ve had good collaborators in the past,
I need to get good at identifying all of this much sharper and faster because I have lost too much time trusting people at face value and not seeing the signs sooner. I have also lost authority from this dynamic when I was in the stronger position to begin with. It’s very depressing for me to feel like a failure due to not being able to play the game correctly. Thank you for reading. Any tips very much appreciated.

I’ve already had issues with digestion in past but I feel since starting my stomach is way more sensitive. I feel I can’t drink coffee anymore and I used to drink it everyday even 2x a day. I know caffeine sensitivity can be a thing on Wellbutrin because of the stimulant effects but for me it’s because it makes my tummy hurt :( and in general my tummy has been hurting more, also left side pain. I feel constipated more than usual or I will poop and it goes hard then soft. Yeah I have intense vagal responses in my gut reflex so it’s worse when I’m anxious I have like emergency evacuation dumps but yeah I’m most worried about the sensitivity I used to be able to eat anything and now I’m more aware of the foods I eat not wanting to upset my stomach and I guess that’s good bc I make better choices but I just wanted to know if anyone experiences this, is it the Wellbutrin and should I be worried. I also realize this pill makes me dehydrated so that’s maybe a factor?

I’m new to the typography world and i could use some advice. I’m searching for pairings for my website - think artist portfolio: simple but not boring, elegant spacing, bold but not overly trendy, so timeless. and I feel like I know exactly what I want in my head but when I go to find typography ideas, I can’t find them and get overwhelmed by all the options and don’t trust my taste. Therefore i have no clue about pairings either. I have gotten inspiration from templates like cargo, and even started looking at typography sites like monotype, etc. but still.

Is it a matter of trial and error and me locking in and doing more research? I have a great web developer on Webflow but basically I need to be able to tell them what I want and that’s where I’m falling short. This is the last big thing left on this project and it’s of course the most important so I would love to have any advice or if you have any ideas font wise.

I can wake up consistently around 8am but I still get anxiety around midday and either need to nap or go into mini freeze. My looping thoughts are still intense but I’m slightly more able to get around them and actually do things in my life. I’m also taking my Buspirone which helps with anxiety.

I’m ALWAYS thirsty. My dreams are vivid but they have really calmed down since week one. I don’t have that irritation that ppl talk about but I’m definitely looping on shit that annoys me a lot more. I drink but not much, I also don’t feel the point anymore but still have wine once every two weeks. The intense crying has also gone away which was present week one. My life is slowly starting to change for the better, the only thing im worried about is the anxiety and body tension but I’m actively working on that. I’m so happy and grateful for this drug. Last year was the worst year of my life and I’m finally starting to get on the other side.