u/lithuanian_baddie

I don't know what to do with my life, I was a dropper fucked jee mains and all other exams. It's not like i didn't try to study for it. I hated it,I fell out of love with it, I just laid in bed all day when asked about the exams and prep i always told that " will cross the bridge when I get there ", i genuinely don't know what to do there isn't even decent a tier 3 college in my state I can get into(kerala), didnt write the state CET exam cause I was too fucking depressed, what hurts the most is not wasting my potential but rather my failure to take use of the opportunity that my environment provided me with, my parents are chill, they don't pressure me about any of these and even advised for therapy throughout the year, it genuinely breaks my heart to disappoint them, I'm a self loathing man of inaction,

Rant aside I cannot think about my future and I'm questioning myself if I will ever have one. Right now my options are to either pivot to econ degree, though I like econ I also like electronics and problem solving as a hobby, but beggars can't be choosers, or take lower branch at a tier 3 college, I'm having panic attacks thinking about future (ps:not sucidal)

And I know I'm the only one solely responsible for the way my life has panned out till now, now I just want to make a descision that I won't regret for the rest of my life, I have enough of that already,

This was mostly a rant, and I'm questioning my every single descision and self introspecting, I hope that the panic attacks will probably seize in 30 mins and i will be fine, grateful for any advices

Anyone joining srm ktr???

Anyone joining srm ktr

I don't know what to do with my life,