u/livexsistential

Six years ago my friend had to be the one to tell me that two of my loved ones died in a tragic way. To this day, I have very complicated feelings around her telling me bad news. I get angry and uncomfortable when I think about her having to deliver bad news to me again, which is very likely because we’re very close and there’s much over lap with our loved ones.

I know realistically I will receive news that someone I love died again, but I feel like if it comes from her I will simply combust. There was nothing wrong with her delivery 6 years ago, she did nothing wrong. I can’t explain it very well, and I feel very alone in this feeling. Can anyone relate or validate my experience? Assuming this is trauma…

My friends new born is fighting a fever. Please pray for him and for his fever to go down as soon as possible 🙏🏻

I am wondering who out there has sleep issues in this profession. Since my last bout of COVID, sleep has not been refreshing or easy to fall into. Last night was easily the worst it’s ever been since starting in this field- I didn’t sleep at all. This came on the heels of the night before only having 2-3 hours of sleep.

I cancelled all of my clients when I watched the clock turn 6am as I looked visibly exhausted (aka horrible) and felt impaired in more ways than one. I sobbed my eyes out all morning just desperate for sleep. I feel like I have no choice but to rely on sleeping meds because I can’t afford taking entire days off and at this rate I have at least 1-2 terrible nights of sleep a week. I do not do my best work after these nights.

Those who can relate, what have you done to navigate this? I feel like if I wasn’t doing such relational work, I could suck it up and still go to work. Does feel appropriate as a therapist though.