u/lmack11

Hello! I am looking into starting courses to become a medical coder. I have some nerves about it though. My husband is worried about AI taking jobs, after reading what people have to say about it, I’m really not too worried about that but I do worry about offshoring though. I hear some places have been hit hard with that. My biggest worry currently though is in regard to getting my first job. I have never worked in the medical field and I fear having no prior medical experience that I’ll have a tough time finding something. I work remotely at a bank helping commercial customers and I’m sure there are some skills I have that would transfer over but I don’t think any hiring manager would see that. I have been seeing comments from people saying that haven’t been able to find work after graduating as most people don’t want to hire someone new even with experience. I am very aware the job market is terrible and it makes me nervous to spend time and money getting certified just to stay at my current job. On top of AI maybe taking some jobs and offshoring- I’m nervous.
Is it a good idea to get into this role? Do people regret it or have had a hard time?

I’m exhausted from thinking about food, my body, thinking what’s wrong with me. I’ve been dealing with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. I really thought with time and growth as a person that’s it would get better someday but I think knowing that I’ve been struggling for so long makes it harder. I’m disappointed in myself. It seems this is just my life. I don’t think it’s possible for me to not struggle with food. The thought “I hate myself” and “what is wrong with me” are daily now. It feels like every thought is about food. How long can I wait to eat, has it been long enough since I last ate to tell my husband I’m hungry, how much is a normal amount to eat, just one more bite, no just one more, well there’s not much left and I don’t want to save a bite, it doesn’t taste as good reheated so I might as well just finish it, can’t waste food….. I could go on and on about my thoughts I have on the daily. All these thoughts while I’m comparing how much I’ve eaten compared to my husband and trying to pay attention to what he’s telling me. Trying to focus on his day while also making sure he eats more than me just to feel guilty when inevitably he gets full before me.
Hating myself for eating, hating myself when I make some excuse to not workout or continually pushing it off. The binging, the starving myself, the food noise, body dysmorphia, and anxiety are just making me feel so exhausted. I’ve always struggled. When I had bulimia as a kid that’s when I knew I had an issue. I realized nobody else was constantly thinking about food or feeling guilty about eating. I don’t have bulimia anymore but at times I wish I did, I wish I had an easier time doing that. Then I wouldn’t feel so guilty every time I eat. I have dreams about cutting my stomach open and pulling all the fat out of me.
I’d never do that but I like to think of the easy fix.
I’m sorry, this is a rambling of thoughts but I keep it all inside me. I don’t like to talk about them to people, it feels stupid for food to have such a power over me. I know it’s not and it’s a very real and possibly normal for me to struggle so much but I’m starting to feel lost. I want to go an hour without thinking about my body and food. I just think I’ll always be like this, never have a good food relationship and never like the body I’m in.