u/longjourney226

AFAB , I've been questioning whether I'm bi gendered (women and androgyne) or I'm just a woman who sometimes feels a bit boyish (but definitely not a boy/guy)

Where it gets more confusing for me personally is I got misgendered a lot while I was a kid due to personal medical reasons and I feel like I might still carry that with me (rather than boyish /masc being an actual different gender identity state)

I know some people say it doesn't matter but I feel like it does for me.

I'm also queer/lesbian.

At the moment I'm trying to figure out if I'm just a cis women who feels very androgynous/kind of masculine sometimes (this is a distant feeling rather than choosing to present that way) or if I'm actually experiencing two different gender identities in fluctuation.

Most online most discussions are around the two genders being women and man not women so it makes it more confusing.

I'll say I'm also a lesbian so I feel like possibly that's effected my experience of my gender as well.

I kinda know I'm being irrational but now I'm in my early 30s, I suddenly feel like I'm "too old" to ice skate, like I'll be seen as immature and that skating is just a kids sport (I don't think that btw)

I'm early 30s lesbian who doesn't have kids and probably won't have them so I feel like my life does look a bit 'different' to the 'norm'. I feel like a lot of people my age are only ice skating if they're taking their kids.

Btw I do not think this about other adults that skate, just myself lol.

Edit: obviously plenty of adults compete but I think that's a bit different, it's a mix of hobby and fun fitness for me.

Second Edit: thanks so much everyone for the lovely comments and encouragement 😊