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I'm exhausted asf. I've had some bad experiences with friends and am almost anti-social now, i do have friends at uni, but i distance myself from them just to not get too attached. I've got like 4 friends and they've got their flaws as well, and I've been an on and off friends with one of them. recently discovered that she's a narcissist and bitching about me to my other friends, cuz she got jealous of me being close to them. like wtf. even after all that she's got the audacity to hang out with me like she always does, i tried ghosting her ( cuz ive talked too many times and it don't work) she puts on a cryshow and plays the victim. I hate my roomies too. cannot even sleep peacefully ffs. to top it off, i chose a mentally challenging degree and am getting challenged now 😭 missing my veedu and my veedu soru. my friends give me too much credit, and i feel guilty for that as well. I'm not looking for advices or shi, just wanted to rant it out to somebody that's it. atp i don't even know what's my escapism. feels like I'm stuck in a nightmare that i cannot wake up from. and the thing is, I've decided to not get attached cuz of my trauma, and i thought i was going good until this great friend of mine did her thing. it hurts like hell to be betrayed. idk ig I'm getting too emotional over nothing. maybe it's the lack of sleep that's getting to me