I need some help bouncing back after an upsetting interaction
I am F16, diagnosed with autism at 8 years old. today in england where I live , there was an emergency alert . emergency alerts are my biggest special interest and they have been since 2022 when I used listening to them to help me get over my severe phobia of nuclear war that was literally preventing me from leaving my bathroom . today it was the first ever emergency alert I have experienced that wasn’t a test , and for me that’s absolutely massive . it was a weather alert .
in my excitement over this alarm, I made a post. it I typed something similar to “this is one of the best days of my life.” I got a reply that I won’t detail but it made me feel really silly for being that excited over something that to most people is trivial.
I’m sure most of you have experienced autistic joy before, the all consuming happiness and stimming and sometimes even crying from the overwhelm of massive emotions, especially tied to your special interest. I typed the post whilst all that was happening. the alert being a happy thing for me is obviously very weird to some people and i completely get that but I just don’t know I feel humiliated and stupid for being happy. I also have adhd and really struggle with rejection sensitivity so that’s definitely playing a part .
does anyone have any tips on how to regulate my emotions around this and kinda keep my head up? is there any way I can support myself so it doesn’t completely devastate me? I feel so deeply upset and it’s really getting to me . any help is appreciated, and please be mindful that even if it sounds like a silly interest to you it has genuinely changed my life. thank you so much. 💗