How to deal with leaving academia prestige
Hi everyone,
I know this mught be going to sound lame, but I al finishing a phd in physics, and deep down I know I should leave academia because:
-I would have to do an amazing postdoc to get back a competite resume
-even though I do like to do research, I am bad at handling the loneliness of autonomy, and I always ends up obsessed about my work in a non-healthy way
-even though I like mentoring, and presenting my work, I hate writing papers, and the idea of looking for grants and stuff to then hire people don't get me motivated
-I don't think I could mentally survive moving out multiple times for postdocs across the world
And so I think I have decided to leave academia after my phd ends, the only postdoc possibilities would be in european national labs, but not universities.
One thing that bothers me though when I picture myself moving into a big company, or a startup, is the loss of "prestige". Now I know this is very shallow, but everytime I picture many month into these works, I feel like in academia you "are someone recognized by others", or at least you feel like you are, where-as back then when I did an intership in a medium size company, I felt like no one cared that you were spending your day at your work. This is stupid, but my brain is stuck thinking like this.
Anyone has felt like this prior to leaving academia? How did you handle it?
Especially sometimes I feel that my career choices somehow try to include this prestige in the list of important criteria, so pushing me to work on what "society acknowledges as the big challenges of our time, like fusion, climate, space, deeptech and blablabla". Rationally I know it is shallow, but somehow it still feels like it matters to me, and I don't know what to do with these feelings in the career decision choices that have to be made at some point. I fear no one will care about me and what I do if its not prestigious (note here that I do have a loving family, gf, and several good friends in my life).
Tl;dr don't know how to handle the pursuit of prestige feelings in career making choices