Low self esteem all my life, why?
All my life even when I was as young as 8, I always put myself down quickly and easily. If I felt left out, if I was being watched to perform a task (especially if I couldn't do it as complete as I wanted to), or failing to perform the task, being looked at in general, not feeling like I'm enough for the things I wished for when it's finally granted to me, incredibly avoidant when I have to talk to new people, hiding a lot, etc.
I feel like its the biggest reoccuring obstacle i have in my life, I'm going to college, need to get a job but I just can't get myself socialize or to put myself out there, but I know its desperately need to and want to.
Edit: Thank you all for the replies! It means a lot to me, I try to study astrology as much as I can but it's a slow process for me to understand.