Hysto + vaginectomy
I got a referral for bottom surgery and I received the date for my hysto + vaginectomy consultation. In the letter, it said that they’re going to perform a vaginal exam and an ultrasound. I’ve been really anxious about it for the past few weeks. I have really bad bottom dysphoria. I can’t be naked around anyone (not even my partner), and definitely can’t handle being touched. The idea of it makes me feel sick. I’ve never even used a tampon. Is the exam absolutely necessary? Could they deny me surgery if I tell them I can’t do it? Even though it makes me dysphoric, I’d be okay with them doing an abdominal ultrasound instead. I’ve tried telling myself that it’s just an organ and it doesn’t make me any less of a man, but nothing helps, and I genuinely can’t do it. I’d need to be put under anesthesia because I don’t want to be conscious or want to have any memory of it. I’m so scared that I won’t able to have surgery because of this.