u/madmeliart

Recently, my timeline's been showing quite a few posts about entries from certain subreddits or other forums, where people (mostly men) say the most vile and dehumanizing stuff about people with BPD, generalizing and straight-up demonizing them.

I know I shouldn't even be looking at stuff like that, but it's hard to turn a blind eye to all that hatred. I'm in therapy, putting lots of effort into working on myself. It's rough, especially trying to give myself some grace, be patient, and stick to the belief that I'm worth the effort. And these posts just feel like a sucker punch.

It's not just the internet, either. I get stares because of my SH scars. I'm also aware I kind of look like the typical cliché (unintentional), so I get stares because of that too, and idk, it just saddens me, but also makes me angry because people are just so judgmental and superficial.

Sometimes, it gets under my skin so much that I think "Why am I even trying? They'll see me as a monster anyway, so why shouldn't I be exactly that?"

It makes me feel kind of helpless and small. It invites thoughts like "If I am hated this much, maybe I don't have a right to stay after all."

But I'd bet I'm not alone on this. So, how do you guys cope?