Hit me after months of no violence feeling heartbroken still here though.
He popped a blood vessel in my eye from hitting me so hard and a chunk of my skin in my thumb is missing and my eye is super sensitive now and I have a bad headache. It all started from us going to see the new movie “obsession” together prior to us going he decided let’s get drunk now I’m not too fond of drinking but I did it because that’s his thing but I’m starting to feel he has a problem we had two cutwaters then a margarita from the taco place. Anyways he was complaining the whole time during the movie and fell asleep and I was upset because I paid for these tickets I really wanted us to see it. So we get into the car he’s bashing the movie being all mean and stuff and I’m getting upset and he’s like “shut the fuck up” I say no next thing you know bam he hits me in the eye so hard I seen a flash I was so scared because I thought we had got past this he called me a “pussy” and told me that would make me be quiet once I felt better I pulled his hair and tried to kill us while he was driving he pulled over and started punching me in my ribs and just doing alot I’m feeling scared because now we are back cool. He promised me he would stop drinking and we go back to our regular gym stuff. Do you think if he stops drinking he’ll actually turn his life around or I am really stupid. He does MMA training and we play around together and I often wonder if this play fighting we do initiates other thoughts in his head. Why me? I was pregnant with his child and lost the child and he was there the whole time for me so I often wonder why he would treat somebody who once carried his child like this all of a sudden idk I’m just lost and 21 and confused