I might be pregnant and I’m scared
I’m scared and figured this might help. Any and all advice is welcomed.
First, some things that I think are relevant to the situation at hand:
I have PCOS, which can have symptoms of infertility. My PCOS causes me to barely ever bleed during my period. I’m lucky if I bleed more than twice in one year. I still get the acne flare ups, mood changes, and cramps like I’m on my period, but I rarely bleed.
Just under four years ago I got the Nexplanon implant as birth control. I was initially told that the implant lasts for three years. When I went in close to the three year mark my gyno told me that studies are proving that they can last for five years.
Me (21F btw) and my bf (22M) have been together for almost one year and four months. I love him dearly and we plan to have a life together, including owning a home and kids in the future. We are currently seniors in college, I graduate in 7 months and my bf graduates in 12 months. We are moving into an apartment together in the next few months.
My bf and I don’t use condoms. At this point, I’m disappointed with myself for letting that happen for so long.
My last period with bleeding was 5/9/25-5/15/25.
All of that context leads to me to my current panic. About six days ago my uterus started to feel weird. I figured it would go away after a day or so, but it didn’t. It’s like a bloated feeling with less pain. I’ve been a bit more gassy because of it.
When the feeling didn’t go away by today, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I took one before work, and the lines looked like it was negative. I left it out on the bathroom sink.
During work today my stomach feeling was prevalent, I also felt more fatigue than usual and brain fog. Today was a more labor intensive day, so maybe that’s why I felt so tired.
When I got home, I decided to check the test again. I have had times with covid tests where the positive sign was barely visible. With that in mind, I wanted to make sure to look closely.
When I put a flashlight to it, there is a very faint positive line. When I looked it up, if there’s a faint line it means it’s positive. I immediately shut down. I don’t know what to do. I hid it before my boyfriend came over.
The thing is that he knows me so well, and it’s hard for me not to just blurt out everything I’m thinking to him. He asked me if I was ok, and I just said I’m beat from work (which is also true). But now he just asked me if I took the test (I mentioned taking one last night), and I said I took it and that I don’t want to talk about it. So now he knows something up. I’ll probably talk to him about it right after I post this.
Is there a world where I’m not pregnant? We are both still in school and I’m scared of having an abortion or a baby, purely because of money (and pain). I know we have been reckless and I’m really regretting that right now.
Please ask questions if I missed something and I’ll include a photo of the test if I am able.