u/mangocadet

i wanna do a degree in maths&philosphy & i’m aiming for a job in academic research (not to be a professor, but to research and find ideas, create an original, coherent thesis and make meaningful work, i have a published article already on something in psych in super interested in, for a magazine!) (so lmk if this isn’t the right degree for it etc.)

i’m still in year 10 don’t get me wrong, but the alevels im thinking are maths fm english lit and classics.. they are all ones im super passionate about (don’t ask but ive already started prereading the specs and content!! im a decent chunk in the first year of alevel maths, cuz of self teaching fm gsce, i like fm more than normal maths..)

hi i wasn’t sure how to tag this. advice would very much still be appreciated for a small blip of context: im low-med support needs autistic, i thrive a lot currently academically. but ive been told by staff i am too hard on myself

im not sure if anyone else actually experiences this, or if its a symptom i can name off the book to somebody since its so gotten so bad now. ive had it as long as i can remember. it’s basically just getting super emotional and crying when being scolded by an authority figure . it used to be just shouting but it recently like a year ago i think it went to just a sudden show of disappointment/disapproval and im basically swallowing back tears and sensitive about it for the whole day.

it happened to me a couple days ago, i was walking to class and i got a fidget of mine (just a ball) confiscated by a member of senior leadership because it wasn’t from the special ed room (the school banned any stuff not from there + the stuff they have there are js those rings that are kinda uncomfortable for me). i wanted to articulate to her that i was autistic because there’s a slim chance she didn’t know (even tho ive been diagnosed for 2yrs + school has been aware + she’s seen me and took me in when i had a meltdown at the school gate) but i just.felt too overwhelmed to speak? not in like a complete verbal shutdown but i knew if i spoke i would go all shakey n stuff so my brain kinda refused. when i was walking away she said smth i dont remember and i responded with “mhm” and she got so annoyed and gave me a dirty look and told me to say like “yes miss” and i said “mhm” again because it was impulse (?) at that point. i eventually said it but i was swallowing back tears and you could deffo hear it in my voice but iont think she cared ..

this was just a recent incidence but i could say about 100 more off my chest but this should be a sufficient example.

i’m in yr10 and i’m debating alevel combinations. the issue is i am both extremely passionate about maths and english lit, and despise all sciences

i want to do maths, fm, englit and classics, since i am drawn to those subjects the most.

on my mocks i got >90% on all my humanities (rs, history) (other than english cuz i haven’t got that back yet, i think i got 8/9 tho since i average that currently) maths i have always been very passionate, im halfway thru my gsce fm spec while self teaching, i know a couple alevel specific topics and one cheeky alevel fm maths topic (sim equations w/ matrices)

i want to go to a russel group uni for like maybe maths or smth else. is it still possible? i know im thinking v ahead rn😓