i feel like i'm begging for the bare minimum in my relationship
my boyfriend (18M) and I (18F) keep having the same issues over and over. i constantly have to explain what I need emotionally, and sometimes it feels like he's not even trying to understand me. every serious conversation turns into me repeating myself, begging to be heard.
i feel like im putting in way more effort than he is. i communicate, i explain, I try to fix things, but nothing really changes. it feels like my needs are always brushed aside until I reach my breaking point.
and the worst part is that it's getting worse instead of better. i love him, but I'm starting to feel emotionally exhausted. i don't want to keep asking for understanding, reassurance and basic efforts like opening the door for me when my hands are full or giving me at least 30 mins/day where those 30 mins will only be mine and nobody will disturb us. i keep asking for these things repeatedly.
he repeats the same mistakes and then acts as if he doesn't even know where he's wrong.
will these things ever actually improve, or is leaving the only thing that will finally give me peace??
i don't want to leave him. i understand that he's busy but he should be here when I need him, right??
TL;DR: i love my boyfriend, but i'm exhausted from constantly asking for basic effort, quality time, and emotional understanding. nothing changes no matter how much we talk. will this ever get better or am I holding onto false hope??
(edit : he's preparing for a really hard and imp exam. it's in sep and that's why he's busy)