The only reason I’m clean is because I don’t know anyone
To get away from the situation I was in (lots of crack and an abusive relationship) I moved over a 1000 miles away. I’ve been clean 11 months. I was on suboxone for cravings but essentially I had to choose between my mental health medication or suboxone. So mental health it is. Problem is I’ve been having rampant dreams about using. I want to get blasted so bad but #1 I am worried it would be laced with fent and #2 I don’t know anyone other then my parents and coworkers and I work in the health field. Outside of walking around a shady area yelling “crack, I need some crack” there’s no way to get it. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I keep telling my dr about the dreams and she has tripled my klonopin. Ive never abused kpin and frankly my brain wants that rush not a downer so it’s not doing anything to help.