r/SoberAndHateIt

Made it the first full year sober since 13. As I remember it, drinking has always made me feel like 'me', then it went with amphetamines, cocaine, crack, heroin, spice then onto abusing prescription meds. I can't stand my mindset sober. I don't enjoy anything like I used to. I stayed drunk till my body rejected the smallest sip. I have no friends anymore, the closest ones I lost to overdoses and the others I've distanced myself from because I NEED to stay sober because my pancreas is fucked... all they do is knock round the streets drinking and smoking having a laugh all day. I envy all of them. I can't find medication that makes me feel normal and have zero confidence to make any new friends and zero motivation to actually do anything about making my life better. I used to think I'd feel great finally being free from my addictions, but now I feel like I only function when I have one. I feel like I'm living someone elses life while still retaining the trauma and regrets of my old one. Just here venting, sober sucksss! 👊

I stumbled across this part of Reddit a few days ago. Found it fitting. I turned 21 a month ago, and it’s safe to say that I’ve been over doing it, a lot. I feel like at my age, I need to get a hold of it before it can get so much worse. But I’m also just in a state of euphoria about finally being able to buy it whenever I want. I’m starting a full time 9-5 corporate bs job very soon and I can’t have this habit of mine following me there. I think I’m young enough to fix it and shake this habit? Maybe? What should I do. Taking any advice or tips.

I’m almost 13 months sober and my boyfriend of roughly one year is also sober (for 7years). It’s easy to stay sober in most ways because there’s no reason to drink around him. But I notice I’ve lost my whittyness my confidence in many ways even though I’ve lost over 30 lbs and look healthier. I go to the gym 5days a week… but I just feel empty.. idk if it’s the loss of alcohol but I’m just sad and bored…I’m sure if I started drinking again my relationship wouldn’t work and I love him so much. He’s so wonderful.. I can’t lose him.. but i feel like I’ve lost myself and my happiness and hope. Also turning 30 in 2 weeks.. which doesn’t help.. I just feel like my life has no life to it anymore.. I just feel so stuck.

Has anyone tried this drink? What's the story? If you're trying to get sober, could this tonic be a substitute for vodka while you're getting there?

This is painful. Another lonely night as a fucking loser. Im just a fucking drug addict.

I quit drinking in January with a few small slip ups but nothing major and was able to get back mentally where I was. I quit smoking cigarettes but now I’m just sufficing it with nicotine pouches so really I just transferred the addiction. Well aside from this somewhat healthy endeavour I am now finding I am spending a lot of time with online gambling. And I am finding I am thinking about sex a lot more. Like all the time. I am just noticing it’s a lot of addictive behaviours, like I am addicted to the dopamine rush. Sex, drugs, alcohol, nicotine, gambling. Is there any escape!
So hard having an addictive personality.

I’m sober from my drug of choice for a little while, but now i noticed i’m staying with a guy longer than i should just because I can take klonopin from his place and he never noticed (he has a lot). I know it’s bad…

i hate this actually. i thought i was making a good decision to choose to stop, and i probably did, but i dont feel like it. i have gotten clean from so many things, this particular anniversary for opiates. and i should be happy, but im not. i feel as if i have a gaping hole in my chest.

for a very abridged story, i have aspd. and ive always used because it makes me feel like a human being, because im bored, because i feel empty, because life is easier for me when im nodding. i had a medical emergency in 2023 that led to an overprescription of codeine and it all just spiralled from there.

currently im waiting to go to work for a shift and all thats on my mind is the pharmacies nearby that i can get stuff from again. they stopped selling to me at the height of my addiction, but theyve probably forgotten my face by now.

i never wanted to think i could struggle with something like this. that i was one bad choice away from throwing everything down the drain. but here i am and its getting harder and harder not to do it to myself all over again.

ive only told a few people i trust about this date and theyre all congratulating me. i cant tell them how much i want to rip my fucking throat out, jump in front of a car, stab myself in the chest, gouge my eyes out so i can go back to hospital and get one more shot of morphine and not have to call it a relapse.

im sober. and i miss it badly.

Is when im drunk.

My brain works, im confident quick witted and funny.

I wish i could be the way I was drunk when I was sober minus the really stupid decisions.

Sometimes I wish my brain wasn't so broken, I hate myself sober and I like drunk me but I hate some of the things I've done when drunk.

It's like living in hell.

So I used to drink 40 units of alcohol per week for 6 years and later when I decided to get rehab I got into a streak of drinking 98 units per week for a streak of 1 month, yea I'm a noob but how fucked am I, I am 6 ft 65kg and I eat twice per day minimal and some times I don't..! When I go sober for a day or two and when I try to sleep, I get this numbness in my toes and right thigh and in my face especially near my eye and my throat gets heavy and my ears start to feel heavy and when I am about to sleep there will be this sudden urge to jerk(heavy jeark of my arm and leg to a certain height level)my body into not sleeping and it goes for around 2-3 hrs and when I get tHe sLeEp and have that nightmare dreams and I do remember every part of it and can control at times. What can I really do to quit this alcoholism, slowly and controlled with some cheat codes..! Please help me..! I asked my family for help but they are too normal to address this. And my friends got their own thing to be worried about and don't want to stress them..! I don't want to die but want to just survive and enjoy my life and don't tell me to do hard work and all. Fak that..! And yea I live in iNdIa..! Shit stain of a country and its ways and I struggle being alive and being me. Please give a genuine way to overcome this for a early fucked up person..! All I want is to sleep peacefully and be myself and eat tasty food..! I don't want a family or kids, I just want to be alive...!

Ok so for some background I (F20) have very chronic anxiety and when I was in highschool marijuana worked fine to treat that but now that I’m in the aviation industry I haven’t had a good solve for my issues and don’t want to risk my license so does anyone have any recommendations aside from prescription medication (I feel those effect me in a way that could be problematic on the job) I’ve looked into CBD but ive heard a lot of the products contain enough trace THC to pop hot in a urine test. Any recommendations aside from prescription medication are greatly appreciated

Hello, I have been struggling lately and want to be sober. However I struggle with having fun or feeling relaxed while sober. Does anyone have any tips? Thanks

I am 38. Single. My kids are not at home anymore. Son is grown and has started a family of his own. My daughter lives with her dad full time and only visits me. My addiction isnt like the best but it isn’t like taking over my life. Idk I used to want to get sober but seems like that desire is dead and gone. I am addicted to meth. IV use. I hate how meth is like the most stigmatized substance anyone can be addicted to. It’s the worst part of it. Anyone says the “m” word and instantly you loose all credibility all respect all everything. You get put into a very isolating little box. Idk I guess I should want to get clean but I don’t

Hi everyone! So as of like 3 weeks ago I got laid off and still unemployed! I’ve been smoking weed for the last 6 years straight and I decided to quit. I’ve been wanting to quit for sometime now but never had the self control to do so. Being unemployed means urine tests for jobs will probably come up so I decided this is the push to stop. But with that I’ve been dealing with insane cravings at night! I’m also depressed and my circadian rhythm is messed up. I got to bed at like 6 AM and wake up at 2 - 3 PM? It’s super depressing and I don’t know what to do!! Any advice or words of wisdom? I really want to sleep at a decent time 💀

I (F 21) have just been advised by my new psychiatrist that my life could be a million times better if I quit. I still don’t believe her, I started a program this morning and today is Day 1 sober, my body doesn’t feel different, neither does my mind much. I know it’s day one so what can I even expect but here’s my thoughts. I’ve been smoking daily since 17, all cartridges mainly and some bud/ dabs/ edibles here and there. My main concern to my new psychiatrist is my mood swings, I get mad at the smallest things even if they have no affect on me, but I still power through it with little to no outward reactions. What if I go through all the feelings and stages or quitting and withdrawal and a year to a few years later I feel no difference and it turns out this is just how I am? It wouldn’t hurt to even just take this as a “break” and test to see how I behave, but I’m doing the best I’ve been in my whole life mentally (always had suicidal and SH thoughts and actions and only 3 years ago did it stop), and what if I go backwards in time just because I decided to test something out. Any personal advice or experience would help

I’m so defeated. I’ve been sober for 2 years man after getting out of being trafficked and man it’s been so hard but I’ve been trying to create this life for myself just to have constant roadblocks. And I’m not talking about like normal life shit, I’m talking about like getting physically assaulted, domestic abuse, getting laid off, losing my art studio I worked so hard to build before it even opened, ongoing legal battles, and now being diagnosed with epilepsy WITHOUT insurance. I’m in 10k medical debt for like barely anything and can’t work right now.

Idk what I thought a sober life would look like but I just am not seeing the “health” and “success” I worked so hard for. I spent so much time in so many places, read so many books, studied coping mechanisms, worked two/three jobs, got my own apartment, saved, and nothing.

Nobody I was friends with wants to talk to me anymore because I’m just experiencing way more than anyone can comprehend so they don’t know what to say, especially after seeing me try so hard and just keep getting knocked down by life. I know I’m only 24 but how am I supposed to like genuinely want to live/stay sober?

I want to and will stay sober I’m just angry about the idea that sobriety magically fixes everything. Ugh.

Now I’m on limited activity which activity and concerts and being on the beach was my main source of motivation to stay sober. Idk.

Apart from the fact that I don’t even know how to make friends especially without drink, I also don’t feel like I fit into the “ sober lifestyle”. I’m not into hiking or mindfulness or yoga or pottery, I find all this stuff boring. I feel like being in the bar drinking with other people is where I belong, I enjoy the thrill of not knowing where the nights going to end, I like socialising with random people Iv just met. I love the chaos, the random nights, drunk adventures, having a laugh. Sober me can’t even ring the doctors for myself let alone socialise with people I don’t know, actually I don’t even socialise with people I do know. The pub you don’t feel judged, it’s just people having fun all in the same room all on some chaos. This is my type of people, these types of people drink though funnily enough.

Unfortunately I had to give up alcohol because I drank myself into liver disease at age 23 🤦‍♀️ but I literally sit inside all day everyday, I knew I needed it for socialising but I regret only have friends I drank with because now I have no one, I’m not trying to be around drunk people as I’ll cave. Like is this supposed to get better, how do you make friends as an adult unless you in a bar or club. It was so damn easy with the alcohol I could talk to everyone and now I can’t talk to anyone, actually I completely avoid any situation where I could bump into anyone I used to drink with.