I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing.
My wife relapsed a while ago and tore our lives apart. She’s been sober for a while now but I feel like I’m still that part that reminds her of what she did when she was going through her relapse. It’s been two years and I haven’t seen here. I think she’s sober I’m pretty sure she has been but she’s still been trying to pretend I never happened. We fought a lot and most of it was me thinking she didn’t take her sobriety seriously. She treated it like a thing she went through instead of something to try to make a change. I think she remembers the fights but not her fighting me and me trying to be there. I don’t know how to approach any of this. When it came to her amends I remember her telling me about everyone she had in mind but not me. When that step came and went she just ignored me. It feels like every time she hit me every time she hurt me every time she ruined our life didnt mean anything to her like it was too hard for her to face and if it didn’t mean anything then maybe she never cared. She told me her life would be better if I just killed myself when I asked to go to aa with her so I could understand. That really fucked me up and I never told anyone because I never wanted anyone to see that in her. I truly believe that’s not her just her addiction and she’s not that person. What am I supposed to do in this situation.