Feeling so lost, irritated and tired...
Hi, I don’t mean this as a rant or anything dramatic, but lately I’ve just been feeling really stuck and I can’t fully explain why.
I’m here in the U.S. and my life is honestly not bad. I have a basic job, a loving family back home, and things are stable. But for some reason I can’t shake this feeling that I don’t really see myself here long term, or that I don’t have it in me to build a real life/community here. On top of that the visa stress is just unending...
And I think that also affects how I think about relationships and marriage. Like realistically, who wants to be with someone who isn’t even sure where they want to settle down? I am 27.5 so already I have matches coming or ppl approaching and looking for partners who want to settle only in USA or only in India.
Ever since moving away from my Uni friends, I’ve just felt off socially. I don’t really feel like I have people here who truly know me. Everyone has their own lives now, relationships, problems, priorities, which is normal, but sometimes everything just feels kind of surface level and isolating. Is that the same in India? idk
And the frustrating part is I am trying. I go to events, I try to meet people, I put myself out there. But somehow it still feels empty and forced most of the time.
Maybe I’m overthinking it, I honestly don’t know. But carrying these feelings around by myself has been exhausting. What all do you do? Does it get better? Or any insights you might have...