May I have AHDH?
Hi! I am +30M.
At some point this subreddit started spamming in my feed and curious about my IQ I took the CORE, the thing that I saw is that there is a big disparity between VCI,FRI,VSI and WMI,PSI. The WMI can be explained, as QMI, because I was translating for english into my main language, but I cannot explain PSI (also tried cait and similar result).
https://cognitivemetrics.com/dashboard/share/RPDFaEkJrI
From what I saw it may suggest autism/ahdh/or nothing at all. I never thought I could have AHDH because I never had major problems academically, neither at work, and sincerely don't know what to think. At some point in time in highschool I discovered I didn't need to study, and started doing test/mid terms studying from 15 minutes before (if I didn't like the subject) to 1 day before (math related subjects, I loved math but studying for a test was not my thing). That pattern repeated trough university, I think I studied the night before or 2 days at max, even I stopped going and I studied from books, other peoples notebooks, old exams, etc. Since I always had good grades, no one told me anything basically because they couldn't or didn't matter.
As teenager I remember I was left alone for a month, the major problem I had was doing dishes (like I kept 20 dishes, and did everything in a row), and yeah never did much for the cleaning of the house. As an adult I decided to have a limited amount of dishes (like 4) at first in order to be obliged to do them if I wanted to eat, and afterwards I bought a dishwasher, also bought a robot vaccum, etc. I didn't have major problems with "house administration", I mean in that period I have had some times where I had to wash the clothes more than once, and even lost some clothes due to that, and also something that happened like once in a month, is to go to the supermarket a lot of times in a day, it wasn't all days but there were times that I went 3-5 times because something was missing (mas was 7 I think). I am not good doing shopping list so I skip them altogether and go to the supermarket (which I hate) and go over all aisles, and buy two or more of an item, etc. Also thinking at some point in time I developed the habit of touching frequently my pockets to see I have all the things I need like wallet/phone/keys in the street, going back to see if I closed the door, etc.
Everything was fine until I had a baby (now ~1.5 years ), we want to raise him with us for the most time (so I am against child care atm), and sincerely we are able to take care and play with him, the things is that I feel that my concentration is utterly destroyed. I sleep less than I should ~6h (sometimes 4 or 5), but a lot of that comes from me having to compensate things I didn't do trough the day, I am developing habits to cope with it, but there are many times where I found my self opening the fridge and looking at it with blank eyes thinking what did I have to take from this place for about a minute, there are times that if you tell me that a spirit takes over my body and don't tell me what he did, I would say that sounds plausible.
My way of thinking is kind of obscure, like I know what shall I do but it's an instant thought or I go in cycles till suddenly an answer appears (but not a logical process, more like I am thinking in something else and then the answer appears). Also my mind is kind of always thinking, or completely empty, like math stuff depending on what I am reading at the time or programming stuff, or more mundane things like money administration, shall I buy this implement or not, etc. I don't like to plan, and do hate stuff like going to buy groceries, I think I am in better shape after working for 10 hours than going to the mall for 2 hours. Also don't think I have hyperfocus, but yes when programming I have entered "flow state" many times and it's paradise to me, also if I am cleaning I don't like to be interrupted because if not it's coming to haunt me later, and I do that stuff in burst like I go and do all the things that I need to do at once and label the day as "wasted", now with the baby I can't do that.
The thing that makes me think I don't have it is like I have been able to "successfully" manage trough life, and my child is doing his 4 meals, sleeping his naps, taking his supplements, etc on time thanks to both of us. And also I am not very emotional, I was a crybaby when I was a child, but in my teenage and adult years I didn't perceive myself as emotional, the baby changed it a bit because know I have highs and lows.
TLDR: I always thought that the problems I had was due not developing the habit of having to study for long periods of time, or like being disorganized (untidy) with my things. I never thought I may have it as I don't think I fit the stereotypical AHDH archetype.
Basically what I want to know is has someone experienced a similar situation, do you think it makes sense to consult a psychiatrist?, may medication help? (sincerely I don't want to take any form of meds, but if it helps me to not be the kind of father that goes three times to the same store in a span of 1 hour I think I will consider it)
Sorry for the long post, and thanks for reading!