u/meatmountain11

It's been a while since I've posted anything so today I feel the need to get some stuff off of my chest.

First, are any of you guys often waking up in the middle of the night to an all out panic attack? This seems to happen to me in waves. I'll go weeks getting great sleep and then a stretch of waking up from 12-3am in a terrible panic for no reason.

Also, for the first time ever, I started lucid dreaming a few times. In the first one I was a little ball of energy and I could go anywhere that I wanted. I could travel faster than the speed of light, go through anything and go anywhere I wanted. I visited a few different familiar places and at the end of it I was in my back yard and wanted to go see what was in the neighbors old empty house next door. When I went through the first floor I saw a ghost family just hanging out and then I went upstairs and saw this great big black evil feeling blob of energy chilling. It immediately tried to attach itself to me and I spent brief rest of the dream running away from it.

The second lucid dream happened during a session with one of my spiritual healers. I was laying on my couch while they were doing work and when I closed my eyes I saw all the regular 'beings' that I usually see around me. They immediately took me on a tour through places that I visit during my regular recurring dreams. Super strange.

This last one was really odd. I was in the body of a teenager and we were at a large party out on a farm somewhere. I was standing around a group of boys and got in a physical fight. One of them kept hitting me in the chest and I could feel the pain from it. I then decided to get the hell out of there and flew off. I wanted to go to the home of this person that I was in. I flew up and through a super large barn and through some trees. Whenever I'm flying in these dreams and I'm going through something like a wall or a tree I can feel it in some type of way. It doesn't necessarily hurt, but it does feel funny. The faster I'm moving, the more intense the feeling. And tree branches kind of suck. This last time I felt a little afraid of heights at first too. Anyways I ended up in this strange house with nobody home and decided that was enough of that and woke up. This happened a few days ago and I am still trying to figure out what the hell that was all about. Who was that person that I was in, where the hell was I and why??

So this has been going on about a year or so now, but everyday I'm getting all kinds of physical sensations. At the very start of this whole thing a couple years ago I would notice getting pokes all around my body. Then zaps, eye spasms, random pains and aches. During some of the insane 'attacks' I felt super strange particle beams that kind of felt like getting hit with a sand blaster, really weird 'suction' rays that I can best describe as a beam of vacuum, microwave-type rays and then just straight electrocution rays that felt like someone dragging an invisible live wire across your skin.

But more recently I've been feeling this subtle, but very agitating sensation(s). A lot of them are hard to describe, but most are on my left side, on my shoulder and side of my torso under my armpit. Also a lot up and down my spine. They hover up and down, give off a pulling sensation of sorts.

I can also 'pull' these energies off with my hands. Whenever I do I feel a lot of different sensations in my hands. Some are very high energy, lots of tingling in my hands holding on to these. Others are kind of blubbery. Feels like holding an invisible chunk of jello. A lot of the time the ones I pull off of my side or spine, I fee an immediate sense of relief. I can breath easier sometimes. Other times my pain is immediately relieved. Most of the time just comes with an enormous general sense of relief. As soon as I let go that relief disappears.

When I close my eyes I can see these energies that I'm pulling off and they're almost always the 'black' ones. Very negative and menacing feeling.

Anywho, do any of you guys experience anything like this too?