depressive episode due to quitting smoking
writing this so you don't fuck yourself and your progress up like i did. so the story started back at 9th grade when i had my first sig and it calmed me down (i had severe anxiety and panick attacks daily at school) like none of sedatives could. since then i've been a smoker. mostly not much because i didn't have any access to cigs other than stealing from my father which was rare. but things started going out of control when i moved out and got money. slowly it escalated to a pack per day. which is not healthy at all. so my boyfriend had enough and took everything in his hands (i didn't mind, i needed control and support, and i wanted if not quit then at least lessen the amount of cigarettes). i went from 20 cigs to 6. in one day. should i say it was a huge mistake? everything went down from there. i started to have less energy, less interest in anything and life itself, insane procrastination, literally not able to shower properly, shortly - depressive episode (in my case, maybe yours looks different). at first i didn't notice, but it got really bad. so now i am here, depressed after a half of a year of stability. i believe stress from the too harsh quitting and lack of stimulation from nicotine caused this. i am to have an appointment with my psychiatrist to solve it. but if you are bipolar and you want to quit smoking.. please be very careful. first make sure you're absolutely stable. talk to a specialist about how to do it safely. DON'T do it too quickly and harshly. you need time and you need a safe way to do it, remember, you're wired differently.
would appreciate some positivity under this post.