r/bipolar1

I’ve never seen anyone talk about this but does anyone else’s voice deepen during manic episodes? For me, my voice deepens and becomes more robust and powerful. Depending on who I talk to, it alternates between an aggressive, seductive and dominant tone. It’s one of the only things I miss while being manic. In fact, it is the thing I miss the most about being manic. Can anyone else relate? I’ve never this symptom associated with manic episodes.

do y'all still experience mood episode with meds? i am just curious for i was diagnosed bipolar 1 bc of psychosis that i think might be just weed induce psychosis, i have ni history of mood eps and its been 7months since i started my medication i still had no mood eps, i highly doubt my diagnosis bc after having 2nd opinion pdoc said it was drug induce psychosis

I feel nothing now. No excitement, no sex drive, I’m dull. I can’t keep living like this. I’m on 50mg lamictal, 10mg Abilify and 900mg of lithium. I want to come off the lithium. We’ve tried multiple different meds and I don’t know what else to do. My psychiatrist is adamant I stay on these meds.

Does it ever get better? I don’t even get the rush anymore from having a drink. Everything fucking sucks.

I’m exhausted from feeling like my emotions are constantly being treated like a problem to solve instead of something to understand in my marriage. This diagnosis is still fairly new to us, but what I’ve experienced my whole life is anything but that.

My partner is extremely solution-oriented. Every conversation becomes about “fixing” the relationship or telling me what’s happening to me, as if I haven’t lived with this my entire life. What makes it harder is that he rarely asks me what I need, what support looks like for me, or questions to better understand me. No matter how many times I explain that I don’t need solutions first, it is never received or heard!

I need to feel heard. I need emotional safety, reassurance, patience, and someone willing to ask questions and understand me instead of assuming they already do.

My husband is more worried about fixing our marriage than he is being there for me and listening. In other words, he is more focused on ending the problem than understanding the person experiencing it.

Has anyone else dealt with this dynamic? How do you explain to someone that support and understanding need to come before problem-solving? Or what should I even do at this point? Anything I try to say is taken as an insult or isn’t understood.

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Doctors call it “unmasking” like it was some hidden gift that was gonna come out anyway. Bullshit. I can’t shake the feeling the pill cracked something that might’ve stayed quiet.

Yeah, maybe I would’ve had issues later, but this forced it hard and fast. Now I’m stuck managing this version of myself I never asked for. Some days I’m just grieving who I was before that prescription.

I'm flying foward time feels way to slow

I'm sitting in the waiting room in psychiatric hospital..

I feel like I'm fucking god. I am dangerous. And I realize it.

Sorry just needed to vent for some people who will understand

I want this to stop

I swing from depression to mania to depression to mania

I feel the meds stopped working fully

And now I'll get it adjusted

I've been really struggling for a long time and I'm pretty worn down about it..I'm 29 soon and life feels not too great for me.

my doctor suggested therapy and new meds but I've been through this before with multiple therapists and I'm tired of it, they say my depression is treatment resistant lmao

I guess I'm just venting a little cause I have no one in my life to talk to besides my bf and I'm sure he's sick of hearing about it. I just want to know it's not gonna be like this always.

Hi there, first post! Im (F23!) thinking of writing about my journey with my Bipolar Type I diagnosis. I know it needs to be disclosed that Bipolar is vastly different for every individual so I’m a bit worried about negative reviews/and I make sure I use a lot of personal pronouns and I/opinion statements because if I were reading a book about someone’s mental illness I wouldn’t want to be labeled by them in a wrong light.

I’ve written a lot already about my childhood for the first section of my story. As well as planning on going through sections of my life and memory issues I deal with/experiences with therapy and doctors (positive and negative) and exploring my lowest lows and highest highs. I have a journal I keep when I’m manic which is most of my episodes (depression is harder to see in my illness but neither is better for me).

I labeled this as a success story because my Bipolar I diagnosis changed my life and I just graduated college with my bachelors degree in biology. (Even despite mania paranoia kicking my butt and missing several, several classes!)

This inspired me to kind of want to share how I made it in case it could help anyone else in some way even just to see a perspective of what it’s like to fight this. I have a wonderful partner who is so patient and I have a medication regimen that finally works after 10 years of trying.

Just wanted to post about it to see if anyone else thinks it’s even worth pursuing and I’m not sure I’d even be able to publish it. 🤷‍♀️ I’ve also never really been on Reddit before and don’t have any community or connections to people open about this illness. So I’m looking for a place to start where I can learn and understand how other bipolar people may cope/feel less alone.

writing this so you don't fuck yourself and your progress up like i did. so the story started back at 9th grade when i had my first sig and it calmed me down (i had severe anxiety and panick attacks daily at school) like none of sedatives could. since then i've been a smoker. mostly not much because i didn't have any access to cigs other than stealing from my father which was rare. but things started going out of control when i moved out and got money. slowly it escalated to a pack per day. which is not healthy at all. so my boyfriend had enough and took everything in his hands (i didn't mind, i needed control and support, and i wanted if not quit then at least lessen the amount of cigarettes). i went from 20 cigs to 6. in one day. should i say it was a huge mistake? everything went down from there. i started to have less energy, less interest in anything and life itself, insane procrastination, literally not able to shower properly, shortly - depressive episode (in my case, maybe yours looks different). at first i didn't notice, but it got really bad. so now i am here, depressed after a half of a year of stability. i believe stress from the too harsh quitting and lack of stimulation from nicotine caused this. i am to have an appointment with my psychiatrist to solve it. but if you are bipolar and you want to quit smoking.. please be very careful. first make sure you're absolutely stable. talk to a specialist about how to do it safely. DON'T do it too quickly and harshly. you need time and you need a safe way to do it, remember, you're wired differently.

would appreciate some positivity under this post.