u/Emerald_bamboo

I ghost people, so texting them I’m sad and don’t have energy to text them back helps. I just copy paste a premade message.

I also tell my work family and health stuff came up. Not mental health.

For manic episodes, going out at night is dangerous, so staying home or nearby is helpful

I hate my minty toothpaste and am looking for recommendations for flavored ones.

I really really hated the hello kids one. Too grainy and a weird taste. I tried strawberry, unicorn, and berry.

How many times in the last 2 weeks have you been bothered by the following: feeling down, depressed, or hopeless or having little interest or pleasure in doing things, having trouble falling or staying asleep, or sleeping too much, feeling tired or having little energy…?

As I circle the numbers indicating the frequency I experienced these, sometimes I find myself surprisingly scoring higher than I initially thought. More often than not though, I want to rip the paper in frustration at the seemingly endless words and trite questions the page holds.

One in 10 people experience depression sometime in their life, but some fortunate folk will never know or will never experience its most severe form, clinically known as MDD (major depressive disorder). However, I hope to inform those who are less aware and validate those who have had depression. This is my attempt (written during my first depressive phase in 2009).

Depression became my constant companion, its presence suffocating and all-encompassing. It whispered in my ear, filling my thoughts with self-doubt and worthlessness. It robbed me of the vibrant, carefree spirit I once possessed, leaving behind a hollow shell.

Honking cars pollution, cracked or non existent sidewalks make walking so annoying. Your best bet is a neighborhood with nice sidewalks and not just roads so you don't have to step on people's lawns.
If you want to skip the neighborhood and not feel bad about how everyone has a house but you don't, go to parking lots and business centers.
They design it for people have a chance to walk during lunch.

If you finally get motivated and are in the habit of taking 3 to 10 minute walks, you are ready for level 2: walking 30 min a day. The key is to figure out the best places to walk. One of the best things that happened in my life is my sister (who is amazing) paid me to walk and go outside. Three times a week in a park or wherever I wanted. Of course, it was like three bucks but the motivation of that was more than enough.

I’ve been on this subreddit since 2013. I found some things useful but I actually wrote something longer on it. I’ll post a few portions of it.

my 3 best methods for fully waking up - sight, auditory input, positioning, and hydration.

1. Auditory
   If you've ever been woken up by a parent loudly washing dishes, vacuuming near your door, or a neighbor's echoing lawnmower, you know how effective sound can be. My Alexa automates this for me — I hear a slow increase in volume of a random
   Spotity pop mix over 20 minutes; then, an announcement of the date, time, weather, and my schedule for the day. Then, it's time to add high-stimulation short-form videos.
   It's high volume may be painful, but it is undeniable worth it.
   On the occasional days I can wake up earlier, I can manually trigger the routine by saying "Alexa, start my day."

I’ll start: I hate the feeling of water. Brushing my teeth and the minty toothpaste flavor sucks and rinsing my mouth.

Same with showers and rinsing my hands.

One of every 3 times I forget my keys, phone, wallet, or bag at my boyfriend’s. It’s embarrassing because he lives with his parents and I street park at his place so when I reach my car, it takes another 5-10 minutes to get my lost item.

It doesn’t happen as often at my house because I put it really close to the door, but I stay in my boyfriend’s room, so I usually forget.

I have a AirTag knock off on my keys, backpack, bag, car, and there is a built in one on my phone. I have lost my phone so many times too. The other day I spent 3 hours looking for it and it was in the bathroom. It has also been on the bed, in my car, in my trunk.

Is there any possible way for me to train myself to remember where my stuff is? When I leave a room, I feel like my memory resets like a game and the memory gets lost.

I have also lost my car and spend 3 hours looking for it at a mall parking lot…..

I really see nothing wrong with starting your conversation with naming what you need from the other person, but that is super super rude.

Instead, I have to look them in the eye, smile, ask them "how are you doing?" , then phrase my request as a question and not a demand.

Then, when they check on the request, its polite to smile and say "no rush" or "yes, of course". And then when the request is fulfilled, you are pretty much obligated to say "thank you" or "that was so helpful".

What is the point?? Am I the only one who is bothered? If not, are there any ways reframe the situation to be less angry?

I have had bipolar since 2010 and I cannot even hope for the depressive phases to go away. Is it even possible?

For context, the depressive phase means that I cannot out of bed. I have uncontrollable crying, and I have a horrible lack of hygiene.

I’m very shy and hate to inconvenience people. This backfires a lot because I don’t understand how many follow up emails or calls I need to make.

Some situations:
- doctor information follow up (they say they will call back but never do, if I call them the next day, they get annoyed, but I don’t hear back for weeks)
- contacting someone from a company (utilities or for career): they say they will call to confirm, but sometimes they don’t and I need to call back. Same with companies for jobs or information
- friends that might be busy: sometimes I feel like I am spamming them but also they are busy I know and I don’t always need a reply I just want them to know I’m around

I don’t need specific numbers (even though that would be nice). General guidelines would work too.

L I noticed when I get cut or I run into something or I fall I feel weirdly sharper pain. I’m on an antipsychotic and a mood stabilizer and a depressing and I wonder if it is just in my head I no longer get the weird face switching or the feeling of wanting to run especially at night but when I move, it’s quite jerky now