r/AnxietyDepression

Image 1 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 2 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 3 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 4 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 5 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 6 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 7 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.
Image 8 — the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.

the world is so cynical and despite my best efforts to resist it always finds a way to pull me back.

I wish I could even just a little bit incite some sort of positive emotion or reaction or anything just do I really sound like what I was told I sounded like? I’m trying so hard. I felt hurt today because I was so wildly misunderstood by an educated person. I wish I was like other people who can get it off their mind and just scroll away and just forget about things after scrolling and I know this looks like a “first day on the internet?” scenario, but I am already sad enough as is, and my little ways of trying to stay positive and trying to see the brighter side of things being completely trampled and so insanely misconstrued as me supporting child abuse, it really just pulls me back to seeing this world as a dystopia of nothingness and everything and everyone around me immediately and always just knows that I am a horrible person but I AM trying, I am desperately trying to resist the force pulling me to wallow in negativity and self doubt. I am trying to see MYSELF in a better light through the world around me, but everyone always assumed the worst from me even when I am desperately just trying. Nobody wants or needs me in this world and I was just trying to be positive, I absolutely condemn the abuse and maltreatment of children. I disagree with hurting children especially intentionally. I wish children all grow up strong, well, happy, and not anything like me. I wish they never had to doubt themselves and I wish they see the world in a better light, be a spark to make even the smallest changes in the world, make it a better place, I just feel so disgusted and disappointed in myself. I wonder if I am exactly what I see myself or if everyone in the world sees me in an even worse as how I see myself. I am so tired. I don’t know. I’m tired of being misunderstood. I”m tired of trying to resist everything just feels so heavy and I’m just so disgusted and disappointed. I don’t know. Maybe I should just disappear. I don’t know. Even just one day of peace. Just ONE. One singular day of peace.

please dont look for the video i just wanna disappear i just wanna disappear the world hates me i feel so disgusted I wanna throw up I wanna stop crying I just want a single day of peace, everyday it’s always i dont know anymore. I’m so shallow and . `i dont know anymore. Just one days of peace or just a sliver of being valued or even feeling even just a little bit. That my life is actually worth keeping. All I do is mess everything up and destroy everything I don’t know I feel so sick and disgusted with myself.the world is just better of without me and I’m so pathetic for being tipped over the edge by an event that happened in some piece of electronic brick and glass. I dont know. I just want to know that even just once I wish that someone would value my existence, if I made someone feel understood or even just slightly smile or I dont know i feel so sick I wanna throw up i don’t know I am just not needed at all here I feel so horrible i dont know anymore. I don’t condone child abuse. I was trying . I a,m I am always trying. Why does everything related to me always just have to turn out ugly. I just wish I don’t think I wish for something so grand or complicated or I don’t know, I just don’t know anymore.

u/enshitl — 7 hours ago

The cognitive problems were almost as difficult as the depression. Depression Journey (Part 9)

When people hear depression, they often think about sadness.

But for me, the cognitive problems were extremely difficult too.

Thinking didn’t feel the same.

Processing things didn’t feel the same.

My mind often felt slow and unclear.

It affected the way I experienced everyday life.

And because it’s difficult to explain what’s happening inside your own head, sometimes you just feel like nobody really understands.

One of the best things about finally feeling clearer was how ordinary everything suddenly felt.

Thinking.

Processing.

Being present.

It sounds so simple.

But when you’ve been without it for years, you realise how valuable those basic things really are.

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u/shah026 — 1 day ago
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I've a very soft heart and cry super easily; and I'm tired of seeing it as a weakness!

So my lecturer made me cry today for the first time in these 3 years of university~ I'm someone who is cries really easily and I grew up being quite embarrassed of it; I got it from my grandma. But part of me feels like it can be a strength in its own way; isn't it kinda beautiful to feel others' emotions as my own? I feel like it should be a superpower. A long time ago I decided that I would be defender of the weak and downtrodden, only for life to throw me a curveball and for me to end up being the "weak". Funny how life does that. Well, fortunately, I've the foresight to realise that it isn't a good idea to publicly post my whole history on here but if you can relate, feel free to message me if you wanna be friends. I'm F25, feel more comfortable being friends with fellow girls. God bless!

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u/jovialjuxtaposition — 2 days ago
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I noticed I am depressed day by day, more evil, zero patience, and live in DARK FEAR. What to do?

I am doing a good job, facing this since the last few months.
I can’t go out and can’t speak to anyone.
I am not going to the office, only doing WFH, and I am in a well-known AI company in a leadership role.

I feel sad daily. I can’t like anything anymore not even good things or even money.
Many times I think, why is this happening?
Why have I lost interest in everything?
Maybe it’s because I have started to realize that everything is fake relationships, growth, and the things we know are all fake and fabricated.

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u/Illustrious_Role_153 — 2 days ago
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MDd

I have MDD, and my family is Christian, so I find it even harder to hide what I’m going through. My mom would often say that people who have mental health problems are “sira ang ulo,” so it’s difficult for me to open up about what I’m feeling.
Sometimes, all I need is someone to tell me, “I’m here for you. You’re not alone. We’ll get through this together.”

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u/PatchWorkSoul_0418 — 3 days ago

[M20] Has anyone found a cure for the persistent sensation of urine stuck in penis (weak urine stream)

Im a M20 college student, This condition found me 4 years ago When I was 16 years old, I felt like there was urine stuck in my urethra near frenulum at that time. I have never had a girlfriend or any sexual intercourse before. I'm hoping to get some advice or hear from others who might have experienced something similar.

Symptoms:

• I've noticed that the "stuck pee feeling in the tip of the penis" (weak urine stream) is often there. Just a minute or so after coming from the toilet, especially after pooping.

• I have had issues with the need to go to the toilet very often (Usually within the 40-60minute mark after taking a pee)

• I pee normally without any issues, but towards the end, I get this sensation that some urine is still stuck.

• After finishing, if I stand and apply a bit of pressure, a few drops and sometimes even a small stream of urine come out.

• The feeling is generally always there but varies in intensity. It takes up a lot of my focus, making it difficult to concentrate on anything or enjoy stuff and relax. It's ruining many aspects of my daily and social life

• The feeling has also developed a bit over this long time, but the "stuck pee feeling in the tip of the penis" has always been there.

I have no pain at all.

What I've tried:

• Cystoscopy: Showed nothing

• Prostate size: Normal

• Ct scan report & ultrasound: No findings

• Different medications: No effect

The doctor told me to seek psychiatrist and that it's just a mental issue, but I'm not entirely convinced. Please tell me EXACTLY what you did. Types and number and length of stretches, medications and usage and dosage or any advice or similar experiences would be greatly appreciated.

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u/realm9874 — 3 days ago

Looking for Places Near Manila to Relax and Clear My Mind 🌿

Hi everyone! I’m looking for recommendations for places in or near Manila that are driveable from Manila and would be good for taking a break, clearing my mind, and getting some much-needed rest.

I’ve been feeling quite overwhelmed lately and hoping to find somewhere peaceful where I can just slow down, breathe, and recharge. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a fancy resort—somewhere with beautiful scenery, nature, a quiet atmosphere, or even a nice road trip would be great.

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u/LeadCertain6690 — 3 days ago

10 Years anxiety : 10 Hard Won- lessons.

  1. Sleep comes first.

If your sleep schedule is trash, your anxiety is going to be ten times worse. Fix your sleep before you try to fix anything else.

  1. Overthinking isn't helping.

Running worst-case scenarios in your head isn't "preparing." It’s just torture. You’re not solving anything, you’re just exhausting yourself.

  1. Routine saves you from brain fog.

When your mind is chaotic, having a set daily discipline keeps you grounded. Structure stops your brain from spiraling.

  1. You have to take charge of your own healing.

No one is coming to fix this for you. Read, research, experiment, and figure out what actually works for your mind and body.

  1. It’s a trick your brain is playing, not reality.

Anxiety feels 100% real, but thoughts aren't facts. Just because your brain signals danger doesn't mean you're actually in danger.

  1. Whatever story you feed your mind becomes your life.

If you keep telling yourself "I can't do this," your brain believes it. You have to actively change the program you're running.

  1. Look around why you only feel anxious

Think why you only are feeling those thoughts palpitations etc. why it isn't happening to your family or friends, it's your thinking making it worse.

  1. Fear eats you up quietly.

If you let fear make your decisions, it slowly shrinks your life from the inside out before you even notice.

  1. Your health is priority #1.

It’s tough to maintain when you’re struggling, but there’s no way around it. Bad physical health = a much harder fight with your mind.

  1. Never trust a thought without questioning it.

Just because a negative thought pops into your head doesn't mean it’s true. Challenge it every single time.

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u/Rapidjom — 4 days ago

End

Hey u guys! I've been having trouble with my emotions lately.. I feel this strong sad emotions all over me and I don't know what to do. I feel like everything is ending :< my relationship, my academic life, and I feel like my time is coming to an end. I feel this deep regret, anxiousness, sadness all over me.. I don't want to end everything but living is making is harder to bare with everything that's happening. I want to help my parents with bills but I just can't land any job, I tried withdrawing some money from an app where I earned money but it didn't hit my bank.. everything seems to be falling apart :<

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u/DefiantCurrency4970 — 3 days ago

Emotional Extremes

Hey everyone. I know I’ve always struggled mentally with anxiety and depression at times. I’ve tried a therapist but financially it is hard as I’ve been a student for so long of my life and I just never found one I clicked with. Recently I feel like my emotions are just going in extreme swings - Randomly cry over anything (stress, sad things from my childhood, etc), get angry easily, or complete boredom and just have no motivation to do anything. I have no clue what’s going on with me and these extreme emotions. I look at something even slightly sad or reminding of someone from YEARS ago and start crying. I get annoying and angry easily. What is going on with me?

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u/Cur10usCatN1p — 4 days ago

Exhausted

Im so tired of feeling this way. Its only been 2 months since the end of June around there. But everyday is a struggle. I've had some good days but the constant worry of if my heart is okay, if my brain is okay or if im gonna die is so tiring. I just want to have my life back. I really feel in a hole and that im never going to feel better ever again and im so scared of that because I do not want to be like this forever. I can't eat a fucking meal normally, I shower only once a week, I stopped going to work. Im so scared this is my life now.

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u/geegee7516 — 4 days ago

Low mood depression &amp; High functioning Anxiety.

Hi all

I wanted to reach out to anyone here whom is going through a mix of both depression and anxiety.

I have personally being living with these two for the past couple of years and yet unable to get my life in order.

There is ups and downs while living with poor mental health and consistently feeling exhaustion and over thinking.

If you are someone that goes through this,

Could you share your story.

Have you found ways to help manage yourself

Has it affected your life? Especially your career?

Have you ever felt it is difficult to live this way?

Do you wish if you could just have a choice to leave?.

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u/Middle_Airline7447 — 5 days ago

I need some reassurance..

Hey everyone, I'll try and keep this short. I'm panicking to the fullest extent and I need help and answers.. so my symptoms are severe muscle weakness. Almost like I can drop my phone or faint at any moment and I feel faint a lot.. so feeling faint, weakness, blurry vision, weird thoughts, feeling dream like, and very pass out like feeling.. my biggest fear are passing out or having a seizure.. I have no family history or previous history of passing out or seizures but I can't shake that's something wrong.. I have blood work and an MRI scheduled for peace of mind but I'm so scared I have ms or some kinda of neurological issues.. sometimes the symptoms go away if I drink or something.. other then that these symptoms are daily and very scary to me.. I can't calm down and I'm just so scared of having a seizure or passing out and dying at only 35 years old.. as far as I know I don't have any previous health issues.. other then high cholesterol which I'm gonna get treated. Any advice would be great.. thank you..

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u/Competitive_Oil_6207 — 6 days ago

what’s wrong with me

i hope this reaches people and i can get a proper answer but im 17F and i genuinely feel like im on verge of dying all the time, not in a panicked way but more in a dull, looming way
my heart beats really heavily when i stand up, sometimes i can feel palpitations
ive been sleeping all day (a few weeks ago i was staying out until 4-5am and being perfectly fine the next day, i never take naps) and today especially its been really bad which is why im making this post like every time ive woken up ive needed more sleep
ive been crying really easily which isn’t really normal for me as im a generally content person
and ive been feeling like i cannot focus on anything im in a constant state of being zoned out, forgetting things and generally not feeling like i truly exist😭
i smoke weed pretty often like once a day or every other day and have been smoking since i was 15 but i dont know why it would have this large of an affect on me and i just want to know if it seems like something like cancer or something more mental rather than physical (im a bit of a hypochondriac)
if anyone can tell me anything id be super grateful thank you

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u/trshtrap — 6 days ago
▲ 3 r/AnxietyDepression+1 crossposts

What if anxiety and depression are not our own thoughts? What if depression is not our fault and it’s due to certain circumstances and environment such as family, stress, loss, lack of money..

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u/Ill-Calligrapher6712 — 6 days ago

I wish I can disappear

Everything in my life is going wrong.

The person i talk to everyday for a year isn't responding the same anymore it's like they're keeping a distance.

My father left us, he's been unreachable for a month now after beating my mom.

I'm having anxiety and panic attacks and I'm nauseous throughout the day and night.

I feel like I should just die in my sleep.

I feel so worthless like the world is against me.

My course which I'm doing had to be put on hold.

How do I even live. My head is aching my heart is heavy my stomach feels like it's sinking.

I'm so lost, it's better to just disappear

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u/kitetsu03 — 6 days ago
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How do you stop depressive and anxious thoughts, no meds, no therapy ??

I have severe depression and anxiety and I am unable to get medication as I am not 18 unless I try therapy and stuff but my anxiety hinders me being able to do this and I am genuinely on the verge of imploding in on myself

any coping mechanisms that ACTUALLY work are much appreciated thank you for any advice

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u/Basic_Rice2774 — 7 days ago

I need help, please (21F)

I cannot stop crying, every decision feels like a catastrophe, I have trouble breathing and everything.

Sometimes I dont even want to get up from bed, my anxiety never goes away, its just sits in my body.

I dont know what to do, I have never felt so helpless in my life.

I have nerve pain and muscle exhaustion, whenever this happens. It flares so badly.

I just want it to go away, this feeling, I just want to stop crying and go back to normal.

Just want my mind to turn off. And stop overthinking.

Please someone suggest somethings, except therapy, because I am thinking of starting it and it will be a really slow process for it to work and neither am I financially independent right now.

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u/alienfromtheocean — 8 days ago

How to stop thoughts of self harm

recently I’ve had thoughts to do with relapsing with self harm and debated suicide but I know that I won’t don’t worry but I have thought about the relief I would get. I am clean for about two weeks and i don’t know what to do I have recently gone through a break up and I was contemplating it before and I still am but now I feel that if I do he’ll blame himself and he also struggles with depression but I really dont know what to do it’s just a constant voice in my head but I also don’t want anyone to see and it’s summer and hot and idk what to do.

any advice to stop such idealisation??

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u/Basic_Rice2774 — 7 days ago

How do you show up at work with depression?

Hi. I’ve been diagnosed with PDD. I work remotely, well paid, but I find it very difficult to actually work. I find it difficult to do anything at all - just to get up from bed, to charge my phone, to get something to eat. I’ve been in survival mode for too long. I thought I’d end it a couple of weeks back, but I couldn’t. I don’t have the courage it takes. I get scared thinking I’ll get fired. My job is the only means of survival for me. My dogs are dependent on me. I don’t have anyone else who cares about me. The most practical thing to do would be to end it, my parents will take my dogs in. If I continue this way, I’ll get fired and will struggle financially as well - on top of everything else. I don’t have anyone I can call and cry to. I go to therapy, but it hasn’t been helping off late.

I’m otherwise interesting - I travel, I dive, climb, paint, I care deeply about the planet and animals, but I’m horrible at relationships - any kind of relationship with people.

I’m sorry, I’m just ranting at this point. Any help on how to be better at work with depression would be appreciated.

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u/Key_Passenger_1773 — 8 days ago