terrified to go under anesthesia as a mom
TW: death
i (28f) have a colonoscopy scheduled for this upcoming week. it’s not necessary, but i originally wanted it for peace of mind due to some problems i’ve been having, and the colorectal surgeon said we can do it so i can get an all clear.
i didn’t really think about how i might be anxious to go under. i do have health anxiety, but i feel major impending doom about this procedure. i am terrified to go under and not wake up. please don’t say, “that’s always a possibility”, because i know it is.
my husband and i have not made a will yet. i’m so scared that something might go wrong and i can’t see my husband or baby boy (almost 8 months) anymore. i know this is a very typical procedure.
has anyone gone under general anesthesia after becoming a parent? did you have a will at the time? did you have to deal with any anxiety about it?
ETA: thank you for all of your responses, i guess i assumed i would be under general anesthesia. it’s my first colonoscopy, but I’ve had 3 surgeries in my life. one of his coworkers just passed away, only a year older than me, for something that was supposed to be a small removal of something, (not from going under), but it’s really been messing with me.