I hate this
So I’ve been using extracts for like 8 years. Used to be a few times a week. Slowly that increased, of course, and now it’s daily. It’s been daily for the last couple of months. It used to be liquid and now it’s tablets. Never touched 7. I’m currently taking mit-a tablets with 28mg of mit-a each. I’m taking 1.5 tabs 2x/day. I’m desperate, I feel like a big loser. I have a good job but I can’t really take off. I’m going through a divorce and have been in another relationship for approximately 2 years. No one knows, it’s all one big f-ed up secret and it’s killing me. My state has banned the tablets I’m taking but liquid extract and leaf is available. I’m trying to taper but it sucks. I’ve quit true opioids twice, many years ago. At this point I think it’s mostly mental. I did stop for 15 days a couple of years ago but didn’t really withdrawal since I wasn’t using daily. Anyways, I don’t know what to do, I feel bad mentally, I’m ashamed, embarrassed, and I feel completely and totally alone. Just really wanted to vent to people that understand what I’m dealing with.