Asked to post here for in depth reading.
I’ve been hyper independent, curious, seeking freedom by waiting out controlling home abusive environment.
Until maybe Saturn return? Idk what but a series of life pivots, every effort leading to grief, anxiety and full stop to everything I know.
Ive been a ghost the last couple of years. A few days since the summer I maybe think fires coming back, passion and possibilities.
Using my fight to learn in depth trauma recovery through, yoga, chi, chakra, astrology and western medicine of course. Whatever helps me make sense of LIFE again?
But tbh, I have no fight left in me. Waiting on ever failing health and neglect or support to actually help me. All I’m being told is I’ve made the wrong choice to sacrifice my health and time for others health. I’m finding out life is just more cruel and difficult and alone.
I don’t know what to ask for or do, they’re all telling me I suck, it’s over, it’s time, let’s ✌️ peace out.
Regrets about not ending it this winter are starting to creep up.