
is my life supposed to be this isolated? why am i just the back burner person to everyone?
ocd and agoraphobic. barely have any people in my life. the people i do have no one seems to fit the standard of what im looking for in friendships, family, or love.
my whole life my one end goal has been to find romantic love, but it seems like people just can’t meet me there romantically. there’s always someone better or more interesting. i’m never the favorite or anyone.
upon first meeting it seems people will want to know me but upon doing so they get bored or keep me on the back burner for when there’s no one else.
am i meant to just be a bit of a loner? is there love for me one day? or do i just die eventually after living a depressed life lol