u/daughterofdamoon

I don’t know if this is my Moon in Cancer (especially since it’s in the 12th house) + Rising Cancer effects, but sometimes I feel a shift in someone’s energy so strongly that I start feeling like they have some unsolicited expectations of me or something. Or maybe it’s because I need consistency, and when someone becomes inconsistent, I immediately feel like they secretly hate me or something 😭. I know this is probably my anxious attachment, but help!! It’s so tiring, even in friendships and relationships.

Hello! I’m 25 y.o female from Mizoram, India and two years ago i graduated BBA. And last year i did an intern and continued as an employee for only 5months in a marketing agency. And i just decided to prepare for government jobs exam but i never really study. I’m still not financially independent and also, as you all now how it works here in India and im part of north-east india and its a very small state and ofcourse we glorify govt jobs because its prestigious here and our society glorifies it so much plus it is the most secure and stable job. I never thought of myself preparing for govt exams but it is the most safe thing to do for me. i don’t have capital to start a business and during my BBA days, i never really study plus i shift from humanity to BBA. I struggled a bit too during my college days but somehow i managed to graduate.
Now, i’am so directionless and confused about my career path. I’m someone who search meaning everywhere so i constantly asked myself what do i wanna do? what do i wanna change in my society? etc. I can’t commit to anything even preparing for govt jobs and i want to commit now, whether if im gonna study for govt jobs exam or training for skills development. The thing that im afraid the most is if i commit and waste years preparing for govt exams or what if i regret it? Fyi, here in Mizoram there is no industry etc, since it’s very small. Can anyone help me with my career?

i know this sounds chaotic, but gladly ask me any questions?