I am a boy and experience negative and strange episodes how can I fix this ?
Hi, I’m a lad and ever since I was little I’ve had strange feelings and recurring strange episodes. I have recurring episodes that also happen to my family – some involving humiliation, delusions, things go well and then end badly, mental blocks, bad luck – it’s happened to me with girls, at school, health and sport Let’s start with school: from primary through to secondary school, I constantly experienced humiliation at the hands of my teachers; I was bullied by others even at sixth form, and school was hell for me. In matters of love, I’ve always had the feeling, ever since I was a child, that I’ll be single for life – I’m convinced of it, and I know it’s not normal. With every girl I’ve tried to get involved with, I’ve always been humiliated and suffered humiliation; for example: once, I tried my luck with a girl and after she turned me down, she laughed in my face. I feel as though, whenever I approach a normal girl – not that I’m particularly attracted to her – I feel a mental block, as if I just can’t do it. All the girls who’ve made a move on me have been of very low calibre: immature, bossy, strange, insecure, and they manage to make me feel inferior and humiliate me. For example: a few months ago, a girl tried to chat me up; she had all these traits and had a fake photo I didn’t like her, so I politely turned her down, and after I turned her down, she showered me with insults I don’t mean to offend – I apologise – but I have to be honest: I think they’re a person with absolutely no redeeming qualities, and I feel like a real loser for attracting people like that. I often find myself thinking, ‘Is the whole world out to get me?’ But it’s not normal to attract people like this – it only happens once in a blue moon. I’m grateful for what little I have, but I feel like I’m being made a fool of. Even the photo isn’t real; there’s nothing good about it – it feels like a joke. On a family note, my uncle was called up twice by a professional team for a trial, and both times he had a fever, and he never had the chance to become a footballer. I, too, missed my chance to become a footballer because when I was a teenager I got injured and broke some bones, and I was treated badly; even now I haven’t fully recovered, so I never had the chance to become a footballer. Another family anecdote involves betting slips. A few years ago, my father and I were placing bets, and for a while we kept losing every match in the 90th minute – not just occasionally, but every single match in a row. That’s not normal. We even had a run of at least 50 matches in a row where we lost in the 90th minute – that’s not normal. Another similar and very strange incident concerns my favourite team and my relationship with them. My father instilled this passion in me when I was a boy, and we went to watch every game at the stadium. At first, I was very happy to go to the stadium Then, after a while, my favorite team started losing a lot of games with 90 minutes or suffering comebacks, and having a lot of bad luck. Yes, we won games, but very rarely, and we lost a lot of games that way. I felt like I was stuck, like I was bringing bad luck to my favorite team, but isn't that normal? I'm aware that there are the players, the fans, I can't bring bad luck, but I felt this feeling. How is that possible? Another strange episode is with the PlayStation. I've been a FIFA player for a long time. I've always played it, it's my passion. At the beginning, in the first few games I played FIFA, it's true I was less strong as a player, but I lost a lot of games and at the 90 minute for example: in 40 games I lost 35 matches in the 90th minute tied 2/3 and win 1/2 I understand losing because I was less strong but it's not normal to lose all the matches in the 90th minute These are the episodes that happen to me. They're not serious episodes, there are definitely more serious things, but they are very strange and repeated episodes that also affect my family: humiliation, illusion, teasing, as if things are going well and then they end badly like betting slips. Strange feelings and I feel a block. Now I'm doing psychological therapy, but I have the feeling that I can't cope with things. Maybe we can talk about family karma? Looking at my birth chart, is it normal for these episodes to happen? and how can i solve I'm currently undergoing psychological counseling but I can't understand the reason for these episodes. I think I can't cope with my life. Unfortunately, I can't have astrologers. Can anyone give me some advice? Sorry for the inconvenience.