Months later, I started to react again from the time my ex SA'd me.
Its been almost half a year, and suddenly I feel a huge burst of fatigue.
I tried to distract myself by gaming and going out to the grocery, but I feel like I've been kinda spacing out with my mind constantly replaying the situation. I cant distract myself as much as I do the things I want to do... I keep remembering vividly the things he did to me, even though the past few months I thought I forgot it all. I just kept remembering the way I walked home alone after he forced me down that night; in the end, I felt confused, and I kept questioning my relationship with my bf, who is now my ex for 6 months now btw.
Its like all of a sudden i'm having a delayed trauma response to it??? i'm so confused cause its been months. Its about to be 2 days and i'm scared it might affect my academics. I'm scared for the worst because most of the time, when things get heavy I struggle to pick myself back up for months, and then feel okay again. It's like an on and off kind of situation that scares and confuses me because I really thought I'm okay now. :(