u/mirch_masalaaa

As I sat under the moonless night,

darkness swallowed every drop of light.

The coldness of the night made me shiver,

made my body numb,

but I didn't move.

I lost count of the hours

I had been sitting there.

Not like it mattered.

Nothing did.

Countless thoughts ran through my head,

making me dizzy,

twisting into one another.

As I sat there, staring into the void,

a cold breeze caressed my face.

Suddenly,

I felt you sit beside me.

I held my breath,

but didn't dare turn towards you.

Yet I could feel you in my bones.

I wanted to reach out.

Hold you in my arms.

Hold your hand.

Tell you that it was lonely without you.

Tell you that the world wasn't the same after you.

But I did nothing.

We both didn't utter a word.

Maybe we didn't need to.

Maybe we didn't want to hear

what the other wanted to say.

Maybe you just came to say goodbye.

But a foolish part of me

reached out to you.

I extended my hand towards you.

My hand touched the void.

I turned.

You weren't there.

But your warmth

was still lingering in the air.

I closed my eyes,

hoping when I opened them again,

you would be here,

smiling at me.

My lips whispered your name,

but the silence

was the only answer I needed.

For a moment,

I cursed myself for reaching out.

For breaking this delusion.

For being such a fool.

As I sat beneath the night sky,

I wondered if you were still with me,

somewhere between the silence

and the darkness.

Searching through the depths of my memories,

I wondered if you ever sat beneath this same sky

and remembered me.

I wondered if the emptiness within me

was because of you.

I wondered if you were truly beside me,

or if my heart

just couldn't accept

that you were truly gone.

Maybe it wasn't your presence

I felt beside me that night.

Maybe it was the memory of you

refusing to leave.

And perhaps,

somewhere deep inside,

I wasn't searching for you at all.

I was searching for the part of me

that disappeared when you left.

.

.

.

------Misha💗

Sooo my room has a balcony with alot of space...so i requested my parents for indoor swing (idk wht tht thing is called its oval shaped and only two people can sit on it ...🤡)

I have a habit of spending hr js sitting there in silence js staring at the sky or doodling on my sketch book or sometimes listening to music... Its my safe space..somewhere i feel peace and be myself ...

Js like any other day i was sitting ...rocking myself on the swing ... i felt uneasy like someone was watching me ... I thought i was feeling paranoid and there was nthg and got lost in my thoughts again...

Suddenly i heard someone clap loudly... I looked towards the source of sound and saw a man standing on the balcony of the house opposite our house staring right at me and he wasn't even trying to hide the fact he was staring... He was fidgeting with a lighter in his hands ... Burning and killing the flame again and again...

I js stood up and went inside my room..

For the next few days whenever i went to the balcony i would find him standing facing my balcony playing with his lighter (idk wht obsession he had with his lighter 🤡)

Thnks to him my safe space was no longer the safe ... The only place i found solitude was no longer mine ... I tried ignoring him but his stares always made me feel nauseous...

One time i was coming home and tried to approach me ... but i ran as soon as he said bt sunoo ...i was likeeee heckkkkkk nooo wayyy im listening to a waste of space like

Today i went to mart to buy smthg as per my mother's order ... i was standing by the check out counter when he entered with two lil girls no older than 3 and 5 ... the little girl giggling while pulling his hand saying baba mujhy chocolate chaiyee or juice bhi ... my heart shrinked when she called him baba ... i couldn't believe a creep like him was the father of two daughters... i wasn't wortied abt him or anything i was worried abt whose lil girls ...kehty hain baap apni beta ka nasseb khud likhta hai ...and i didnt want anything to happen to those lil girls at all they dont desrve to pay for his mistake

So I wasn't online today allot...idk if u guys noticed or not ... either way, I missed u all ...

I have a fever , sore throat , eyes and back hurts like b!tch 😕😕💔💔

Ig playing around in rain wasn't a good idea 😕

Thts all ig ...ig im gonna sleep again ..

Have good day u people and keep smiling 💗

Welll someone told me tht being nice in big 2026 is mid 😭😭😭💔💔💔 and i was like wht the frying pan is tht shiiiiii

Like im always nice and friendly ...most people ik in ts sub r sooo damnnn sweet 😭😭😭

Sooo how is tht a mid ??...isnt being nice and kind a good thing ?...doesnt Allah love people who kind and considerate of others? 😭🌙

I js found out abt it now im gonna makes shi posts hereee 😭😭😭

Ayayayayaayaytayay😭😭😭

U guys should have told me abt it sooner 😭😭😭

Bad manner all of u 😕😕😕😕