u/mirrorgang

Hello everyone, I went on vacation for a month somewhere. I’ve never been. I befriended this guy. We hung out multiple times during my day, we didn’t talk much but we had high proximity and it was very low maintenance. He’s an artist and also guest listed me two of his shows, we got food and coffee together multiple times I paid for some parts he paid for some parts we paid for our own meals. We both would go back home short.
Come over to hang out for a bit and we just talk. We had a physical distance from us each time there was some things I’m grasping for straws on though

While we at

- his friend said I'm a baddie he said She is a baddie!
- he held my hand at club to guide me past crowd
- I jokingly said we should get married so I can move here and he said we should
- he said it's gonna be weird when I am gone
That's all but maybe it's all like a friendly way I can't tell
His friend told him "u and my name) would look cute together " and she said he looked at her all serious and said "Okay"

On my last day, he came over with our friends and as he was about to leave, I asked him if I could kiss him on the cheek and he said yes, I made him a painting. I remember he would take a lot of candid photos and videos of me, his friends told me he hung out with me more than any of his other friends while I was there.

We barely talked and didn’t make much eye contact
I talk the most though, and I was very silly around him and complementing strangers when we walked around
I think he’s very sweet and super chill
He opened up a little bit about some problems though, and I can tell he’s a bit passive

I’m back home now and then I keep having dreams of him. I’ve never had this many dreams about a guy before in such a short period of time.

His friends can’t read him, and I can’t read him on his feelings. I really miss him. I really like him. I made him a painting of us.

My Instagram account accounts deleted now so there’s no way he can reach out to me, but I have his friends contacts

And they said if me and him don’t work out, they can hang out with me if I’m back in their country

One of them said he’s not seeing girls and it’s just busy with work and his music stuff

I’m starting college this spring again so but it’s online and I want to go back while I study

I think my attachment style is an anxious avoidant. I’m obsessively intensely thinking about him and dreaming about him, but I’m not acting clingy or spamming him or seeking reassurance and stuff. I’m trying to distract myself and be productive.