6 weeks pregnant and PTSD setting in
I am 6w2d with a IVF pregnancy. I had HG with my first successful pregnancy in 2023. This time I worked with my REI and HG specialist to try and prepare my body to hopefully lessen the potential/severity of HG. I’ve been taking supplements for 9 months prior to transfer and I trialed taking metformin but it was stressing my body so much my REI wanted me off of it. I took it for 3 months and didn’t get past 1000mg (I had to actually get pregnant first and my body being so stressed was not good for an embryo transfer.) The sickness is really setting in and I’m having PTSD flashbacks and I am terrified. I thought I knew what was coming. I thought I did everything I could to prepare my body and mind to do this again. I am so disappointed that it’s already this severe again. I was so hopeful that the supplements and metformin would help in someway. I don’t know how I am going to make it through this again, with a 2.5 year old this time. A big part of the spacing we chose with IVF was so my daughter was older and I wouldn’t miss out on too much of her being a baby because I’m too sick. But I’m already a shell of a mother. I just feel so alone and no one understands. This baby and pregnancy is SO wanted, but I just want to cry and cry and cry. I feel like since it is an IVF pregnancy and I am so incredibly blessed to be pregnant with a second miracle baby that I just have to grin and bear it when I am crumbling inside.