u/mlcomp

My Q has been working on being sober. He is more successful than not. Mostly I am indifferent when I’m with him. Today we argued about something stupid and I became so angry. It’s like every single thing that happens sends me back to what I’ve been through. There’s way more to what happened today of course. But do other people feel this way? It’s been almost three years since it was really bad and I am still so mad in the inside.

I don’t need suggestions, I’ve done Alanon, therapy, research, Put The Shovel Down etc. I really want to know if others feel the same way.

I am new to this sub, but I don’t think I’ve seen any positive stories. Does anyone have a spouse who successfully got sober and stayed sober?

It’s been going on for so long, I am so broken. I cannot remember the last time I was actually happy. Now, if is stay I will be unhappy and if I leave I will be unhappy. What’s the point anymore? I am not suicidal, I would just rather be dead.