Relapsed after like 6 years wth
hi! I used to struggle with bulimia and other eating disorders when I was really young like 13-16 and Ive still struggled with thoughts and some binge eating and restricting but its no where near as bad as it was when it was controlling my life. The biggest accomplishment is that I haven’t purged in about 6 years so the other day when the thoughts won after a binge and finally turned into action I felt kind of insane. I’m 22 now and feel much wiser, like I know it’s no good for me and I have kind of almost completely accepted and have been loving my body as it is, so it’s so frustrating that this happened. It felt a bit euphoric and comforting purging again after all of these years but I don’t want to go back down that rabbit hole of doing it multiple times a day. I basically just wanted to vent here and see if anybody has tips for not “fully relapsing”?