Am I aromantic or just avoidant?
Hi! can someone help me I feel like I might have hints of this for a long time but I refused to believe it so If someone could explain to me it would be great! ❤️
So I'm still in highschool and I started to talk to my friend who left my school a while back and I have a feeling that they like me but I used to like them in middle school. However, I got into a "relationship" with them due to many of my "friends" pure pressure to seem normal but the whole time I felt really uncomfortable holding hands or doing all the romantic stuff and even when they made me sit next to them I would panic and get anxious really fast. So when they ended up dating someone else I felt some sense of relief but also still wanting to be friends. So moving on, I'm now in highschool and most of my friends are talking about people they like or are dating and they asked me if I was. I said no, but felt obligated to "start talking" to someone, so I picked someone I felt like they were nice. I started to talk to them and I genuinely felt more normal and maybe I could actually be normal and have a real connection with someone until it started to hit me that if we were going to date I would have to do all the romantic stuff and I started to have a huge pain in my stomach and felt so uncomfortable to the fact that I sent an apology text to them saying that I couldn't do this anymore and I wanted to be just friends. Later I felt better but then their friend started to threaten me and saying that I broke their heart. I didn't mean to I just felt really uncomfortable and if it went on I would be really depressed. Now my current situation is that I'm starting to text my old classmate that i used to "like" back in middle school and my situation right now is that I feel like they like me again but I feel really uncomfy when initiating anything back and I don't want to break their heart again but I really just want to remain friends and when things are getting serious, I feel like backing out and I start just wanting to be friends, I don't find these things sweet or cute rather uncomfy, maybe im not aromantic and just immature?