SA victim: My dog helped me heal and now she is triggering me
Half the reason I got my dog is because I was going through the peak of my trauma, and finally starting to dive deep in healing. That was four years ago. She helped immensely just in her presence, snuggles, knowing when I was upset, etc., and I love her so deeply for that. I know that dogs commonly have resource regarding issues, but her protection of me is driving me nuts and triggering me. I have a new partner who I genuinely feel safe with and trying to let my walls down but my dog hates it when we touch, kiss, etc. She just barks at us until I let her on the bed, couch, etc. Which I’ve read is the absolute worst thing to keep letting them do. It’s like my brain is trying to say “It’s okay, you’re safe” and my dog is screaming “you’re not okay, you haven’t healed”. It’s just a constant reminder, not to mention is obviously very annoying to my partner and to me. I’ve read some reddit threads about this dog behavior already and so not exactly looking for dog training advice (tho I’ll take it) but wondering if others have had a similar experience overall and just feeling really frustrated because I’ve come so far with EMDR, ketamine therapy, regular therapy, etc.