u/mr_souldreamer

First of all this is just another moment happened in my life and i am just venting/ranting about it here. If u have time just read it and tell me your thoughts.

Already i have shared some story one month back in this sub and thats the reason for this story to get started. It’s little bit long hope you guys wont mind.

Am not again mentioning my details as i have already shared it in my previous story.(Marathi girl i got matched on dating app)

So this happened exactly one month after i posted about a moment happened in my life. I just randomly opened Reddit to see new posts and there i saw one notification in inbox which is rare. A new request from a random profile(22F). Asking me to reach out the girl i met on dating app if i can just reconsider the preference i have.
( u have to read the last story i shared to get the full picture of that)

There we started to talk, i told her i can’t cause that preference is something i value in my life and cant just drop it. Then from her i got to know she also have the same preference about this in life. Because of it even she had to end her relationship a while ago. She is hopeless romantic and she didn’t receive the same amount of love she gave. This was the starting point in this story.

I dont know why i didn’t stop there and left. Instead i told her she will find someone in life who values her. Then we continued our talk to get know each other. Age, name , place, family, what we are doing, so and so… i guess she got curious about the profession i am in thats why she started asking a lot of questions about it. I was happy to reply cause i rarely found people who are interested in this. Then the topic changed to future plans,exams,clg, food, hometown and all. It was really good talking to her. I didn’t even knew that time after few days I would start to like her.

I usually don’t send this good morning ,good night texts to people. What’s the point of sending when we know we and the person on the other side are not going to sleep after that goodnight texts, will be scrolling or doing something else. or we are not having a good day.

But that day night she send me good night text before we were to end texts for that day. I replied her back the same.

Next day i was having off and morning itself. She took the initiative to text first. I was like why would someone i don’t know in real life taking initiative to talk to me? But i didn’t stop replying her back. From evening that day when both of us got free we started to talk more our fav things and all. I found some things are common in us. Even for late reply’s she gave reason and said she is not ghosting.
Why would people explain and give reasons for these to a stranger i thought.
All these time we were texting in Reddit only and it lacked this voice note feature which was frustrating for both of us. I want to shift to some other app. But I didn’t took any initiative that time. We talked for some more time and same like yesterday good nights texts from her.
Next day again initiative from her side. We talked about the movie she went that day. About others things, how we are with our siblings…. I felt like she is genuine and honest. ( don’t judge me for feeling that for a stranger, i get it if someone is genuine or not. Instinct i guess ).
That day night i thought i will take the initiative to ask her for her insta. To my surprise she said its deactivated cause too much distraction. I felt odd. I remember she said before she is studious, but didn’t thought she wont be having insta.by bad.
Then only solution is telegram. We shifted to telegram.

She saw my profile pic and first msg. I look like her friend’s ex😂. I got confused is she really friend of my ex. Then i told her rn i don’t have any ex in her district. Anyway within minutes she send her pic one time even without asking. Because it was one time I couldn’t see her properly. I didn’t expected it was her pic or she will send me. What to do. Only solution ask again. I asked her to send normal so i can to send the pic to my sis cause my sis asked. Actually she asked when i told about this stranger to my sis day before. I was not lying.

She refused saying if she gets comfortable after sometime she will send. I said okay. Even though i didn’t see her properly in the one time pic. Then i sent her my recent pic and all of a sudden she started to take lecture for how it’s unsafe for sending pics on telegram and don’t do that to any other people i met on anonymous platforms, i agreed to her and said i will be more careful . That day evening i went out with my friend so we didn’t talk that much also she had some clg works to do and she slept early.

Next day again initiative from her side to text. She had clg and that day we didn’t talk that much even she was tired after clg and i also went out. Then Before sleeping good night texts from her.

I got this doubt in my mind. Do people send these texts to strangers randomly? That too every day?

I felt bad when again she is the one taking initiative next day too. She wokeup every day early morning and send me msg. Where i woke up late every time and reply her. That day too we texted inbetween whenever i got free time. From evening continuous texts.
Then the topic came about the beliefs we have. So i am an atheist person who dont believe in god. It’s not like i oppose whoever believes. For me its me personal thing and i respect others what they believe. She was a theist. She believes in god and have temple visits weekly or monthly. I didn’t thought much about this dissimilarity that time.
For me that time i felt like she is someone i can open up about anything without thinking too much. Even my voice notes were 2-3 mins long. Yapping about the things 😅. Talking to her felt nice. Its been only few days i know, maybe its because of the constant texting every day i thought.

Next day i woke-up early and send msg from side. That day i got packup early and was free. She also had her day off. So inbetween we talked. Then she sent me her pic that she send me earlier in normal mode. I guess now she is more combative with me. This time i saw her properly. She is beautiful and has a pretty smile on her face i didn’t wanted to close the pic from my screen . For a moment a thought came to my mind. Is she the one I was looking for my entire life? Should i tell her?

Instead i just texted “ your simle nala rasam und” thats it. Nothing else came from me.
That day we talked some more time and she had clg next day and had to travel 3hrs to reach so she had to get things ready. After she got her things done before sleeping same like other days before good night text.
My mind was saying to ask her out about if there is any future we can plan together? I know it’s too early and haven’t meet her in real life ,we just connected online. I thought maybe after one week if this talks continues i can ask her.

Next day even i had to woke up early and first text from her. But today instead of good morning text it was a long paragraph text from her side.

I don’t know how my late night thoughts went to her mind. It was unexpected and didn’t thought this day would be the last day we talk.

Long paragraph in short, i guess somehow she felt whats going on in my mind. And if am looking for dating her in future, she want to share something she was thinking after she got to know am an atheist. She don’t want an atheist person as her partner. And even had to reject proposals before for the same reason. We are like the 2 sides of coin.
As I have my preference about other things about life partner she have this thing too.

What to say to her? I was in my work place and mind complete blank. A lots of thoughts ruching into my mind. Wonder where she caught me off guard. How did she read my mind?
Anyway I replied it’s okay u have preferences. I was unable to type more. I just send a voice message. I lied to her in that voice msg. I said i didn’t thought about dating in future. Only lie that came from me!
Then i said .For me being an atheist is my personal choice and i respect people who believe in god, am not like opposing it. Even if the partner i get in future is a believer i wont have any issues cause its her personal choice and personal space.

I actually meant it what i said last. But i don’t know why i said about the future partner to her. Am i trying to convince her?

After hearing my voice note lie about no plan for future dating she said if that the case then no issues. She didn’t wanted me to lead on without her knowing. She had a friend who she saw as a friend only got feelings for her in past and she didn’t want that confusion in-between us.

Then a lie to myself i told her. Don’t worry i wont come say i like u after talking for 4-5 days.

Then i asked her did she had any plan like dating? And i told her i was thinking to ask her after one week that. We started our talk from a common topic. For the story i post in Reddit she could have just commented but instead she came to dm.

I guess what i tried to say and what way she took it was different.

She send a voice note saying. It’s not her first time she dmed someone about sensitive topics she saw on Reddit. We had similar thoughts that the only reason for dm to know the reason for the way why am thinking about that topic.
Then if she felt creep from her side sorry. Its not like she is too desperate to come dm some stranger in the intention of dating .

Then she asked did i thought like that.

I replied i didn’t felt like that but in between a thought came to mind like you are the one for me.

What she asked and what i replied i was completely different. She asked about whether i felt creepy and desperate from her.

We had to make that situation ease. So both of us send some emoji texts to make it ease.
Needed? I guess so.

I asked her should we continue the talk or not?
She said . As there is no dating intention its okay for her.

I wanted to ease both of us so i tried to change topic. I knew she was in the bus stop waiting from bus from the background voice of the voice note. But anyway i asked where she reached? And told her when she gets free text me. Then said okay for that.

That day i wanted to text her again. to talk more things with her. But mind was not allowing me. No text came from her after that okay msg. Complete silence from both.

Felt like we are back to the strangers. I know there is nothing that can say we were together. But for the few days we had it felt good. Someone who constantly showed up every day morning for me , someone i can open up without a second thought, someone who had similar thoughts in some things i value. Its rare to zero actually i find someone like her in real life

I respect her for openly saying her preference about beliefs and am not match because of that. Before i confessed to her.
I guess it saved me from another 💔
Still doubt how she caught me? I am sure from my text msgs there is nothing someone can find that i started to like her. All these was in my mind only. Only i know. But somehow she caught me.

I wish she finds someone of her preference, who takes care for her and have a good life. From talking to her i feel she is a kind soul.

As for me. Still Searching for the person who is waiting for me in this world. I guess in time i will find mine.

This was the few days of story with the girl i found on Reddit.

Sathyam alleee guys??

Choose wisely! Venting to clear my mind.

Another story- Girl i found on Reddit.