kinda want some advice
its been a while since i posted here, i am 28 days clean. For like 90% of those days i had no urges or interest towards porn, i focused solely towards my girlfriend, only having eyes for her. I’d get the occasional thoughts about girls but i just shoo the thoughts away because they’re mostly just intrusive thoughts that i know are not MY thoughts, but what i’m really mostly concerned about is how i’ve been feeling for the past like week, i’ve been slowly getting urges back for some reason, maybe cuz of stress or something? no idea. but i have been exposed to some sort of nsfw completely by accident for most of the days and i kept avoiding it, didn’t feel anything towards it for a while. but nowadays i’m kind of glancing longer at it and noticing my patterns, i’m getting impulses to search stuff up, like that curiosity you always get to search something “innocent” knowing damn well what you’re gonna find. I’m not gonna lie i did slip up, i didn’t fully look into anything, but i gave into the curiosity a tiny bit and gave quick glances at the things i saw but i controlled myself and realized its not worth it. i think I’m really just getting dangerously close to relapsing and i really don’t want to, i feel so much better how i am right now and i do not want to ruin that, this is sort of just a vent to let everything out and an opening for someone to give me advice because i truly feel like I’m getting close to another relapse. if you read all this, thank you so much and please try to leave an encouraging comment if you can or any advice.