I think Rexulti may have ruined my life
Context: I took 2 mg of Rexulti for maybe a decade and only recently found out that it was the cause of my anxiety. Every decision I’ve made over the last decade was made because I was so anxious and worried that I was trying to pre-solve every problem before it occurred. Does the pool have a leak? My brain said it was a crisis so I spent thousands trying to find the leak (which no one ever could) and refused to believe it was just evaporation. It was. Or the crack in the chimney made me believe the house had foundation problems so I spent thousands on engineers trying to prove it. They never could and I would never believe them. So I moved. Now that I’ve reduced my dose to .5 mg I can see that there were no problems. Now I have moved to escape that house and am in an old house with a huge mortgage that I will never be able to sell. I’m not anxious about my finances, I’m depressed. One day I will not be able to keep myself afloat. But now I’m trapped. Well, at least I’m not anxious and trying to pre-solve the problem.