parents say i've ruined their lives by coming out
16 ftm, for context my parents are chinese, very very MAGA, and we live in california. idk i've genuinely never vented before and i've never even came out to anyone, just kinda kept working out and working on my appearance until i passed naturally. however, i came out to my mom a few weeks ago because i wanted to at least try and see if something could be done. She didn't say much at first, but today she brought it up again and started telling me after doing research she concluded that i've been brainwashed by leftist media and californian public schools. She told me that I've torn the family apart -- that she realized all the sacrifices she made(we're immigrants from china, she gave up being the CEO of a pharmaceutical company to move to america and pursue better quality of life and education for our family) had been completely destroyed by me wanting to transition. She said my father has been taking it so poorly that he's in complete denial and has not been eating properly, and then described how my life will be completely ruined and how society will not accept me at all or give me any career opportunities. She also said that I have completely ruined their lives. Maybe she knows that that part is important to me because i'm very ambitious academically, but I never thought that being trans would take away from that or from who I am as a person.
I've been very dysphoric since the age of 6 and changed my appearance when I was 10. I only found out what the word transgender meant when I was 12. I attended a religious and anti lgbtq middle school for three years before moving to a public school. I spent every birthday, every christmas, and every dandelion i've wished upon praying that my whole life had been a dream, that I would wake up the next day as a boy and that everything would just smooth out. I spent every day of elementary school daydreaming being a character I'd invented to represent who I wanted to be, going on adventures and making friends who would treat me like a normal guy. I wanted nothing else. For years I've avoided looking in the mirror, kept a very small selection of clothes that didnt make me feel revolting, and played every sport i could manage in order to grow taller. i'm still 5'1, chopped asf, and barely recognize my own reflection. I've never brought up feeling this way because I'd been under the impression that i'd be kicked out, and honestly I don't know if this is any better. I don't want to live with my parents every day knowing they view me as someone poisoned by political propaganda who has killed their sweet daughter. I really don't know what to do. I think its over for me
tldr; parents incredibly unsupportive of transition, mother says I've ruined her life and family