u/myblueoctober

30yo female with PDA. As soon as I’m doing well on a task and sticking to the schedule, I start thinking “don’t fuck up…you’re gonna fuck it up and disappoint everyone again…you’ve never been able to get this right, what makes you think you will this time…” It gives me so much anxiety, then I shut down and actually do disappoint everyone. They’re intrusive thoughts obviously, but I can’t get rid of them. I’ve tried positive self talk. I’ve talked about it extensively in therapy. I’ve tried meds. It is sort of connected to childhood trauma so I worry it’s kind of baked in there at this point. Any thoughts?

I have wide roots and my tissue goes up to my pits, but close set. Full on bottom. And I have a very short torso. So I basically need a balconette shape. I’ve been wearing the freya flirt padded half cup bra. Previously, I was wearing a 30F (30G US) but I knew the cup was too small cause I was spilling up over the top. I finally got around to ordering the next size up, 30FF (30H). Finally the band and the cups fit (well, band is a little tight i wish 31’s existed because the extender gives a little too much extension but I know it’ll stretch out, and my left breast fits the cup perfectly my right breast is a little smaller than my right but not drastically). So that’s all good I think, but now the gore is stabbing me in the boobs. If I try to bend it away from me, the underwire hurts. If I push my tissue to the sides, it pops out the sides/bottom. I’m TIRED yall I’m starting to think I’m never gonna find a bra that fits.

I’m waiting on my lap in November and I want to know what this pain means. I think it could be adeno but I’m not sure?

Over the last 6mo-a year I’ve started having a symptom that’s been increasing in frequency/severity. After I orgasm (or leading up to orgasm when you start having those contractions) I feel this intense burning cramping pain in my upper vaginal walls near my cervix. About equal on both sides, and it happens whether there’s penetration or not. It’s 9/10 pain but it usually only lasts for like 10-30 sec so it didn’t bother me too much. Then it progressed and after that initial 9/10 burning i have 3/10 burning for like 30min. Last night however it was 10/10 pain and lasted for about 5 minutes, one of the most painful experiences of my life and my pain tolerance is high. I was trying to breathe through it and could barely do that. I was actually screaming. I was thinking wtf do I do even if this doesn’t stop, call 911? Luckily it did stop but it really freaked me out.

I got an MRI and it did find signs of DIE, but not adeno. But I don’t think it caught everything. For example, it didn’t show adhesions around my ovary or adeno even though my ultrasound showed no sliding for my right ovary and a thickened uterine wall. I’m also extremely symptomatic and the amount of endo the MRI showed probably wouldn’t account for that. Still I’m not really sure what to think! Does this sound like anyone else’s experience? Did your surgery help?

TLDR: Hi! I was just wondering if anyone could provide some wfh or hybrid career options for me, a 4th year neuroscience PhD student. I’m not sure what my options are based on my particular situation. I’m looking for a wfh/hybrid job in industry or pharma that can accomodate chronic illness. Being in person is tough for me but I can get a ton done at home.

Currently, I’m a 4th year PhD student in neuroscience (Alzheimer’s focus). Previously, I was a research assistant at a well-known institution in Boston for a duration of 4 years. For context, I was given a lot of ownership over my projects during that research assistantship, so I gained a lot of technical and investigative experience. I also developed a lot of networking relationships there, which could help. I have far less experience throughout my PhD, because I started experiencing symptoms of chronic illness which have gotten in the way of my research. I’m still undiagnosed. I’ve missed a lot of days of school, which means I’ve only been able to do the bare minimum to get the degree. I haven’t submitted any grant proposals, haven’t mentored a nyone, etc. By the time I graduate I’ll submit 1 shitty paper.

My committee is trying to help me get to the PhD finish line by letting me graduate early, in Spring 2027. I’m trying to get on top of the job application process by understanding what, if anything, I can do to improve my CV in a year. I’m looking in the Boston area. I would love to continue a career at the bench, but right now it doesn’t seem realistic. I just need money. So I’m prioritizing wfh or hybrid jobs in pharma/industry like writing, editing, project managing? I’m still looking to stay in science, not transfer to something like law, sales or business.

Pros/skills: —I’m a good writer but don’t really have anything to prove it other than mock proposals —10 years of experience with mouse work —Have several good papers from my previous job, on the latest one I’m second author —Conference experience from previous job —Lots of biochemical technical experience —Light coding skills —Lab manager for 15+ people at previous job —Personal connections with someone who edits for a high impact journal and several people who work in pharma (but at the bench)

Cons: —PhD project undeveloped —Don’t have a ton of mentoring experience —Haven’t submitted a grant proposal —First author paper will be shitty —Looking to apply straight out of PhD —No conference experience from PhD

Please let me know if any careers sound like they would be a good fit for me.

Thank you!

TLDR: Hi! I was just wondering if anyone could provide some wfh or hybrid career options for me, a 4th year neuroscience PhD student. I’m not sure what my options are based on my particular situation. I’m looking for a wfh/hybrid job in industry or pharma that can accomodate chronic illness.

Currently, I’m a 4th year PhD student in neuroscience (Alzheimer’s focus). Previously, I was a research assistant at a well-known institution in Boston for a duration of 4 years. For context, I was given a lot of ownership over my projects during that research assistantship, so I gained a lot of technical and investigative experience. I also developed a lot of networking relationships there, which could help. I have far less experience throughout my PhD, because I started experiencing symptoms of chronic illness which have gotten in the way of my research. I’m still undiagnosed. I’ve missed a lot of days of school, which means I’ve only been able to do the bare minimum to get the degree. I haven’t submitted any grant proposals, haven’t mentored a nyone, etc. By the time I graduate I’ll submit 1 shitty paper.

My committee is trying to help me get to the PhD finish line by letting me graduate early, in Spring 2027. I’m trying to get on top of the job application process by understanding what, if anything, I can do to improve my CV in a year. I’m looking in the Boston area. I would love to continue a career at the bench, but right now it doesn’t seem realistic. I just need money. So I’m prioritizing wfh or hybrid jobs in pharma/industry like writing, editing, project managing? I’m still looking to stay in science, not transfer to something like law, sales or business.

Pros/skills: —I’m a good writer but don’t really have anything to prove it other than mock proposals —10 years of experience with mouse work —Have several good papers from my previous job, on the latest one I’m second author —Conference experience from previous job —Lots of biochemical technical experience —Light coding skills —Lab manager for 15+ people at previous job —Personal connections with someone who edits for a high impact journal and several people who work in pharma (but at the bench)

Cons: —PhD project undeveloped —Don’t have a ton of mentoring experience —Haven’t submitted a grant proposal —First author paper will be shitty —Looking to apply straight out of PhD —No conference experience from PhD

Please let me know if any careers sound like they would be a good fit for me.

Thank you!