u/nadirprice

I've been on a 14 month streak, and it's crazy how people treat you.

A week ago I went to the store and the cashier was so mean. I was kind to her and thanked her. Yesterday I went to the store again, the same cashier and she was the sweetest.

Then I tagged along with a friend to a cafe to meet up with his friends. His friends all arrived and just completely ignored me in a way like I didn't exist. Like they got nervous and did not know how to behave so I reached out to and shook their hands introducing myself. However one of them kept ignoring me the whole time and kept throwing condescending jabs at me. I just deflected it and was super nice to him.

Also women have been incredibly friendly and approachable. However a girl I was talking to went completely cold on me. Like she wanted me to chase, and when I didn't she just went cold even though I was never mean to her but only nice.

I've had so so many of these experiences it's wild.

I'm always positive and share love and light everywhere I go. And I notice many times guys and girls that I fully trust just try to back stab me, almost every time. I am getting used to it now. However it makes me sad because I would never treat anyone like that. And it seems that these people behave in the manner out of impulsion, like they are unconscious of their behaviors.

I cannot be the only one to experience this.

I'm a guy and every time I meet a girl that I like, its like I devout my self to them. I give them my ultimate presence and unconditional love, without expecting anything in return.

Then its feels like they take my energy and just go away with it, leaving me drained and wanting them. This happens almost every single time.

It like everyone has agendas and they never disclose them to each other, while I am just very open wearing my heart on my sleeve.

It's a ruthless world, especially the energetic exchanged between men and women.

Can be very tiring for the soul. I feel like I am just too naive to properly navigate the complexities of culture in this reality.