
Waiting, hoping for the best, bracing for the worst (it's day 17 y'all)
Cat tax and meme tax, two birds with one stone. I also have bipolar II and have been riding what feels more like a struggle jet engine than a struggle bus as lithium has torn up my system. People either love or hate lithium, and as it is currently punching my thyroid and kidneys, I firmly hate it. Doctor wouldn't take me off it and I now do not have access to him until most likely Tuesday to be able to get off it. He gave me levothyroxine for the thyroid, and if I have to be on it forever because I tried a mood stabilizer that didn't go well, I'll be livid. So now I'm just praying the birth control does its thing, the levothyroxine does its thing in the next few days, and hopefully I won't have to disappear completely to hide the fact that I'm not going to actually be a human, but a husk. I'm already in "I'm not taking more of this bullshit" mode, so I'm wondering if that's going to amplify. Send positive vibes as you're able. I need a miracle to get through this without murdering someone.